Week 2

[Helen]

Okay so I'm trying real hard to be besties with Steven and he is not having any of it, it's so embarrassing! I'm trying so hard to keep our conversation alive and he could care less, lol! I mean his reign of power is over for the week so clearly he should be flattered that I'm interested in knowing him when he's not all high and mighty?

On the other hand, I'm talking to GinaMarie and she's a character! She's also the first person to say, "Well if I win HOH I won't put you up!" -- FINALLY! THAT'S ALL I EVER WANTED TO HEAR FROM ANYONE! Um. I hope she's a competition beast now, hehe!

Luckily, this HOH appears to not be live. Hopefully that gives me a chance to at least place high!

[Helen]

Wow, the game has definitely started for me!

In just a matter of days, Jen was evicted! It sucked seeing her go because I definitely think she's someone I could worked with! Oh well, better her than me! Following Jen's eviction, we had our second HOH which Rhian won!

Naturally, this made me really happy -- up until today, Rhian was probably my closest ally in the game, but a lot of things have been happening that are making me question her intentions. First off, I must say that I thought I was the nominated houseguest! Why? Hmm, because my key was the last one to be pulled out! RUDE! And second, Rhian mentioned in her speech that she talked to everyone and it seemed like nominating Amanda and Bart would've been what everyone wanted to do, but no where during this period did she even run her ideas by me or clue me in onto what she was doing! Sure, she kept me off the block -- thanks, but she didn't make me feel like we're working together either. Obviously we're not married so she doesn't have to tell me anything, but for someone who I connected pretty close with and to not be included in on anything, I'm definitely concerned about where I stand in terms of her game.

Second, Amanda being nominated is a disaster! Side note: why is it that I always become attached to players that are getting nominated? LMAO! I'm like a charity worker or something! First was with Jen, and now it's Amanda! Then again I had a growing friendship with Amanda from the beginning (Amy Army!), but today she officially became the person I trusted the most. What I thought I had going on with Rhian I'm now feeling with Amanda but ten times more legit. I think the moment that sealed the deal for us was when she questioned Ed's intentions (Amanda was hurt that she wasn't one of the two people Ed kept safe as a reward for his temptation crap) -- I played my first role of double agent with Ed to see what Amanda's role was in his game and whether or not he would push to keep her (like he said he was) or throw her under the bus -- and he did in fact throw her under the bus I revealed the information to Amanda, who promised to keep my name out of everything should any confrontation occur, but I'm sure it hurts to be betrayed by someone you thought you were working with. On the bright side, it definitely made the bond between the two of us even greater. I know I can trust Amanda now, and I definitely proved my loyalty to her. This also paved the way for me to make friends with Jade as well, who I haven't spoken to much until today. She definitely feels the same about Amanda (wants to keep her) and is also very cautious of who we're playing with (or she could be downright playing me too -- who knows, LOL), but if she's being real truthful to me then we definitely have to take this opportunity to work together. I don't know who is working with who in this house, but I'm not included in any powerhouse alliance, which means I'm next to go in someone's book.

[Helen]

I'm hoping that with Ed, Sam and GinaMarie "safe" for the week it'll also make them not legible to play in Veto. If so, that means we'd have Rhian, Amanda, Bart, and the remaining houseguests are: myself, Jade, Faye, Judd, Deana, Steven, Eric, Steven, Dan and Peter -- that means I have a 3/10 of getting picked for Veto -- and there's no doubt in my mind, I would definitely use the Veto on Amanda. Even if it means the end for my game, I feel like by letting nominations stay the same (which would most likely secure Amanda's eviction) would be the laziest move for anyone. I don't want to rock the house, but I don't want to sit down and play dead either. If I do win Veto, I'll talk with Rhian and act like it's the perfect opportunity to backdoor someone, so as to not reveal my true allegiance with Amanda.

[Helen]

Dun dun dun, Rhian asked me not to use the Veto on Amanda if I win. But Steven is playing so chances are I won't even win lol.

[Helen]

So the Veto competition nearly took me 30 minutes ... LOL. It was so hard, ugh! I hope our times aren't revealed to the public because people are just going to think I'm weak, I thought I'd be somewhat of a competition beast but haven't come close to winning anything! It's very important that I win the Veto -- not only would I be safe from the block but I could save Amanda as well, which is definitely my intention. If Amanda DOES win Veto, she saves herself which is great, since I don't have to cause any waves by putting her up, but then I'll be very well worried that I could go up as the replacement nominee, since Amanda picked me to play in the Veto I'm sure everyone will just assume we're a pair and want to split us up. If I'm up against Bart, do I have votes to stay? NO. Haha. Hopefully I won't have to cross that bridge tonight.

On a different note, I did not come here to play Big Brother 15. The whole, "It's what the house wants!" talk is driving me crazy!

[Helen]

Bad news, good news, and more bad news ...

The first bad news is that I didn't win Veto. Not only did I NOT win, I came in drastically last place -- 10 minutes behind the next person! My only saving grace is that at least I got all of them right, as there were a couple of people who only got 14/16 correct or whatever ... but ugh, it was so hard! Maybe it's because I haven't seen every US and foreign season of Big Brother? I don't know, I'm bummed though -- I really wanted to place high on this Veto so people would think I'm a competitor -- now I'm probably sending the wrong message!

Good news is that Amanda won, so she lives to see another day! I don't know how she got 2 minutes or whatever time she got but whatever -- I still question how Steven did so good in the first Veto too! Whatever, good for her! Doesn't really surprise me, she seems to be pretty good at comps, she almost won HOH.

Bad news again ... I was online earlier talking to Rhian, and she told me that "people" are throwing my name under the bus as to who should be the replacement nominee! Ugh, are you kidding me! I'd be completely pissed if Amanda got off the block and I got on it! Rhian didn't disclose who these "people" are, but the fact that she opened up to me (she also told me that she was going to nominate Dan and NOT me) has made me feel horrible for questioning her intentions from the beginning. I definitely want to keep Rhian around now, more than ever! Even if she doesn't put me on the block, that still doesn't take away the fact that my name has been thrown around and if I DON'T win HOH, then I'll for sure be nominated! I haven't spoken to Bart, Dan, Eric, Deana and Steven a lot so I feel like one of them could've thrown my name around but really it could be anyone! The next HOH will be crucial for me, I absolutely have to win. I'm praying for an endurance competition. If I can make it through this round, then it's really going to be game on! I'm so shocked that I'm being targeted so early on when I feel like there are bigger fish to fry but that's Big Brother for you!

[Helen]

Okay so I dodged a bullet there, thank God. Dan was the replacement nominee -- I hate it when replacement nominees im me and beg for me to keep them, because then I just get all sorts of attached and have this fantasy of the saved houseguest winning HOH and keeping me safe since I kept him safe Anyways, it's Bart and Dan this time around. I honestly can't remember if I've ever spoken to Bart, and Dan seems like a genuinely nice guy and I think he said he'd keep me safe if I voted for him to stay (I'm sure he's sad that to everyone), but a girl can dream, right?

I'd rather see Bart go though -- not only is he probably the one houseguest I've had the least contact with (the next being Eric), I also feel like he and Steven could be working together since Bart picked Steven to play in HOH. Steven is my biggest physical threat, so if I have any shot at dwindling his numbers down, I'd totally go for it. But once again, the numbers never favor who I want to stay! Everyone says they're just going to vote with the house which probably means Dan. I'm also looking at the bigger picture too -- whoever stays from this eviction will be competing in HOH, and if Bart were to win I'm sure he'd nominate me since we never talk, but if Dan won ... I mean hopefully he'd remember I was doing some leg work and would keep me?

Anyways, next HOH is crucial for my survival in the game, and if I even want to DREAM about making it to jury at this point, I need to own this next challenge. I'd KILL for an endurance challenge right now, I think I'd really surprise the house with my drive to stay. All I need is just a week to get people off of my back.

[Helen]

Okay so a lot of TALK happened yesterday and now I'm more inclined to vote to evict Dan. A whole bunch of talk which could very well be fake for all I know, but we'll see! I still don't have many details, but there are talks of an all-guys alliance being in the mix, and Dan is suspected to be a part of it ... plus, I heard he was one of the people to throw my name to Rhian as a replacement nominee. How the hell are you going to tell the HOH to put me up as a replacement nominee, and then ask for my vote to keep you safe?

[Helen]

Ugh but then I keep remembering that Bart picked Steven to play ... but Bart also left me a nice message asking me to keep him ... hmm.

[Helen]

Ugh, I just cast my vote for Dan, not sure if this is the right choice or not ... it's the right choice if he is involved with this Alpha Male alliance and an even better choice if he did throw me under the bus, but something doesn't feel right about keeping Bart here. Oh well, even if I did vote to keep him, it wouldn't mean anything if everyone else is still evicting him.

Final 14, here I come!