Week 12

[GinaMarie]

Ed and I made a deal that if one of us won both HOH and POV then we would use veto on the other. Well apparently Jade was not happy that Ed nominated her and Ed told her he would use veto on her and told me that if he wins he might have to use it on her because he doesn't want to lie to her. LOL well then. Thanks Ed. Now I have to win veto! And its eye opening that Ed cares more about making Jade mad then making me mad. Hmm. I'm going to leave my options open if I make it to F3 and win final HOH

[GinaMarie]

Oh boy! Rhian is not happy.

cyber_life_xx: (10:52:46 AM) morning <3
cyber_life_xx: (10:52:53 AM) are you mad at me? :/
Rhian: (10:53:05 AM) heyy
Rhian: (10:53:17 AM) idk just depressed
Rhian: (10:53:32 AM) its weird how ed didn't nominate you too
cyber_life_xx: (10:53:56 AM) he told me he wasn't going to before he did it
cyber_life_xx: (10:53:59 AM) and i was like
Rhian: (10:54:03 AM) lol
cyber_life_xx: (10:54:07 AM) oh thanks!
cyber_life_xx: (10:54:10 AM) lol
cyber_life_xx: (10:54:21 AM) i was fully expecting him to nominate me
Rhian: (10:54:30 AM) mhm
cyber_life_xx: (10:54:57 AM) whats wrong
cyber_life_xx: (10:55:05 AM) something is bothering you
Rhian: (10:55:13 AM) nah
Rhian: (10:55:23 AM) good luck in veto if you haven't gone
Rhian: (10:55:30 AM) I'll probably go later
cyber_life_xx: (10:55:48 AM) rhian
cyber_life_xx: (10:55:53 AM) what's wrong
cyber_life_xx: (10:55:59 AM) i know you well enough
cyber_life_xx: (10:56:05 AM) to know something is bothering you
Rhian: (10:56:13 AM) im just peachy
Rhian: (10:56:24 AM) It's all on the line for veto
cyber_life_xx: (10:56:36 AM) what are you talking about?
Rhian: (10:56:42 AM) Me staying
Rhian: (10:56:52 AM) If I don't win veto then I'm gone
cyber_life_xx: (10:57:08 AM) lmao what?
cyber_life_xx: (10:57:24 AM) you really think if i win then i'm going to evict you?
Rhian: (10:58:42 AM) something doesn't feel right
Rhian: (10:58:46 AM) im sorry
Rhian: (10:59:17 AM) The last time I left f4 my ally pretended to lose everything so I'd leave and they wouldn't have blood on their hands
Rhian: (10:59:35 AM) so I'm scarred in that respect
Rhian: (10:59:40 AM) Trust is rattled
Rhian: (10:59:50 AM) and when ed didn't nominate you it worried me
cyber_life_xx: (11:00:00 AM) have i ever
cyber_life_xx: (11:00:06 AM) given you a reason to doubt me?
Rhian: (11:00:20 AM) no
cyber_life_xx: (11:00:28 AM) i have not at all pretended to lose any comps whatsoever
cyber_life_xx: (11:00:35 AM) i was so mad that i didn't win hoh
cyber_life_xx: (11:00:41 AM) you know i don't like puzzles
cyber_life_xx: (11:00:44 AM) i told you that day 1
cyber_life_xx: (11:00:51 AM) and i still did good IMO
cyber_life_xx: (11:00:59 AM) ed just went ridiculously fast
Rhian: (11:01:09 AM) yeah
Rhian: (11:01:17 AM) I have to go back on the floor
Rhian: (11:01:24 AM) I'll talk to you later
cyber_life_xx: (11:01:42 AM) i can't believe this
cyber_life_xx: (11:01:43 AM) okay
cyber_life_xx: (11:01:45 AM) ttyl
Rhian: (11:01:47 AM) bye
Rhian: (11:02:18 AM) look
Rhian: (11:02:21 AM) I'm sorry
Rhian: (11:02:22 AM) okay
Rhian: (11:02:26 AM) I'm just upset
Rhian: (11:02:35 AM) I don't mean to take it out on you
Rhian: (11:02:44 AM) I'm not mad upset angry at anything concerning you
Rhian: (11:02:55 AM) I'm just mad that I helped protect ed this long
Rhian: (11:03:14 AM) GM
cyber_life_xx: (11:03:27 AM) yes?
Rhian: (11:03:38 AM) Did you get anything I just sent?
cyber_life_xx: (11:03:41 AM) yes
cyber_life_xx: (11:03:48 AM) i just feel like
Rhian: (11:03:51 AM) I just apologized. I said I'm sorry
cyber_life_xx: (11:03:55 AM) i know
cyber_life_xx: (11:03:58 AM) i was taking it in lol
cyber_life_xx: (11:04:05 AM) trying to figure out what i want to say
Rhian: (11:04:07 AM) I don't want to fight with you ugh
Rhian: (11:04:09 AM) please
cyber_life_xx: (11:04:17 AM) i feel like you think i'm planning on getting you out
cyber_life_xx: (11:04:31 AM) which is absolutely ridiculous
Rhian: (11:04:33 AM) nooo
Rhian: (11:04:36 AM) Not at all
Rhian: (11:04:49 AM) I just question you and ed sometimes
Rhian: (11:04:52 AM) or what you tell ed
cyber_life_xx: (11:05:07 AM) why don't you ever talk to me about it then?
Rhian: (11:05:26 AM) like I wouldn't blame you if you wanted ed final 3
Rhian: (11:05:33 AM) because he'd take you
Rhian: (11:05:39 AM) you'd have two people taking you
cyber_life_xx: (11:05:41 AM) i know you question it and i've asked you before about it
cyber_life_xx: (11:05:45 AM) i wanted ed out last roun
cyber_life_xx: (11:05:47 AM) *round
cyber_life_xx: (11:05:48 AM) honestly
cyber_life_xx: (11:05:52 AM) the main reason i wanted him gone
cyber_life_xx: (11:05:56 AM) was to prove to you
cyber_life_xx: (11:05:59 AM) that you're my f2
Rhian: (11:06:09 AM) and you're mine
cyber_life_xx: (11:06:12 AM) because i'd be silly to think you don't think about that
Rhian: (11:06:16 AM) You've always been mine
cyber_life_xx: (11:06:21 AM) you've always been mine
Rhian: (11:06:25 AM) I just don't like Sharing
Rhian: (11:06:27 AM) LMAO
cyber_life_xx: (11:06:29 AM) LOL
cyber_life_xx: (11:06:32 AM) you're not
cyber_life_xx: (11:06:36 AM) i'm all yours
Rhian: (11:06:39 AM) okay seriously my boss just yelled at me
cyber_life_xx: (11:06:39 AM) i've always been all yours
Rhian: (11:06:43 AM) I'll talk to you soon
Rhian: (11:06:48 AM) I get off at 2
Rhian: (11:06:50 AM) <3
cyber_life_xx: (11:06:54 AM) okay ttyl <3

[GinaMarie]

The Rise and Fall of Rhian Sugden.

cyber_life_xx: (4:11:38 PM) this fucking sucks
cyber_life_xx: (4:16:00 PM) are you here? :/
Rhian: (4:16:46 PM) whats up?
cyber_life_xx: (4:16:53 PM) are you okay?
Rhian: (4:16:58 PM) no?
Rhian: (4:17:01 PM) Why would I be
cyber_life_xx: (4:17:14 PM) sorry i asked
Rhian: (4:21:07 PM) np

[GinaMarie]

Fully expecting Ed to use veto on Jade. I tried hard to stay off the block, but I guess I had to go up at some point. Jade should be evicting Rhian. She has told both Ed and I that is what she wants to happen this round, so let's see if she actually goes through with it. If she evicts me than I will kill Ed lol but I don't think she will. I hate jumping to conclusions about this kind of stuff, but Jade, Ed and I have a F3 deal so I really don't see Jade breaking it. Plus, Rhian never talks to Jade and nominated her last week. So I feel pretty good regardless of what happens with the veto ceremony. 

So ASSUMING Rhian is evicted, I am going to bust my ass to win final HOH. I know if Ed wins it he will take me to the end, but I don't want to be brought to the end, I want to make the decision. Because honestly, it would be a decision for me. Here's the thing, in four years of playing ORGS I've never won lol. I really want this to be my first one and yeah Ed and I are friends, but I don't think he would get mad at me. I didn't come into this game saying I was going to aim for 2nd place. I said I was going to do whatever I had to do to make sure I win the game and evicting Ed at F3 would fit that. I feel like I would have a much stronger chance against Jade than I would against Ed, though I feel like I could beat him too.

[GinaMarie]

Now I really am considering evicting Ed if I win final HOH. I don't know why he was so persistent in using veto to save Jade when he made a deal with me before he did with her.