Diary Room Entries #10

[Rhian]

I'm so happy that GinaMarie won her first competition. She did so well! I knew it was going to be her or I that was going to win this, especially with Peter sitting out. So yeah, I'm pleased with the outcome! GM and I discussed nominations if we were to win, and it was always going to be a combination of Jade, Helen, and Peter for her. While I said the same to her, I probably would have taken it upon myself to remove Ed from the game. Since GM is in power .. fat chance that Ed is going anywhere. Because of this, I feel like the second best option would indeed be Peter. Peter has proved his loyalty to me in this game by filling me in on things and keeping me off the block, but he's emerged a threat.

It's the end game. This is where you face hard choices and have to make smart decisions. Peter is the number one person that stands in my way and in GM's way of winning challenges to keep the power in our hands. After Peter, Ed is the one that threatens me in making it to the end. I've already told GM, Ed is going to be my target should I win Head of Household next round. He needs to go. I know she wants Ed near the end, or better yet, in the Final 3, and that's just not going to happen. Helen and Jade are pretty much worthless in all aspects of the game. I mean, that sounds bad, but whatever. Those two would make it extremely easy for GinaMarie and I to wrap this up in a pretty, little bow.

Ultimately, I'm looking out for me first, and GinaMarie second. That said, half of me wouldn't mind if Peter did win Veto and saved himself. Why? He'd nominate GinaMarie and Ed next round more than likely. How amazing would that be? I'd make sure Ed left. I do think that Peter is probably more useful to me than the likes of Helen, but the bad thing is that Peter has become this huge physical threat and could potentially win his way to the finals, and I don't want that to happen. With him on the block and Helen beside him, GM is probably going to be engaging in some drama tonight, seeing as the both of them hadn't done anything to her in this game. They'll view it as a backstab, and a harsh one.

[Rhian]

Ugh. I literally couldn't do the Power of Veto. I actually wanted to win this one and it became impossible for me. I know how I am with math. I suck at it. As soon as I realized after 30 minutes that I was potentially going to be sitting there trying to solve it for hours and hours, it didn't seem worth it. There's no way anybody else was going to go hours. The worst part of the challenge is that when you tried to do the grid, you started to wonder if your answers were wrong. I second-guessed myself so much with my answers and that then caused me to go back and look to see if I was incorrect. This was a cruel challenge. Definitely the hardest, in my opinion. It wasn't for me.

GinaMarie is confident in her score and that she'll win. If she wins, that's great! She'll have a cleansweep! And, it'll seal Peter's fate and he'll end up leaving the game this round in another unanimous vote. However, if Peter beats GM, then, that's great too? Peter would more than likely stick GinaMarie on the block next week if he won Head of Household and could definitely stick Ed up beside her. Either way, it works out for me. Peter going is fine because he's a huge physical player and could win his way to the end, but if Peter stays, he could be the one I use to take out Ed; my Amanda replacement, per se. Win/win.

Also, this round has been completely boring. Nothing entertaining has happened at all. No drama, no nothing. Peter approached GM and GM basically lied her face off saying he wasn't the target, and he's fine, etc, just to feed him a false sense of security. She showed me the log and Peter seemed to buy it, which is pretty funny. I hope he's not that gullible. Afterwards, Peter came to me and said how worried he was about being up but that GM said he wasn't the target. I really hope he has a better sense of the game otherwise he's absurd. I mean, the fact that he's supposed to be in a F4 with Ed, GM, and I, and Jade wasn't nominated, but he was? Hello!? That should be a major red flag for him. 

[Kat]

Sorry for being cruel

[Rhian]

GM comes through and cleans up nicely! With GM winning, the nominations are now staying the same and it's pretty much Peter walking out the front door. Before the challenge and after nominations, GM was telling Peter that he was safe and he wasn't the target. If Peter comes to me about the vote, I'm not going to lie to him. I'll let him know that the majority is voting him out and then he can take it up with GM. Helen finally came around last night too. I told her that had I won, I probably wouldn't have put her up because my target is elsewhere. I let her know that if I win this next Head of Household, she's safe with me. This all implying to her that she's staying, plus GM apparently PMed Helen and told her about what she said to Peter to cover her bases.

I'm really excited to have made it to the Final 5. This was my second goal after making Jury. The Final 5 is such a core group of individuals in the game and you get the feeling of almost being there, almost making it to the end. It's in arm's reach right now. The pressure is on now though. I really want to win this next Head of Household competition. However, if it ends up being anything with mathematics, let alone numbers, then I'll probably lose. As we saw, that's not my thing and I bomb at it. I'm intimidated by numbers. I despise math. They overwhelm me. I just hope that it's something I can do well at, especially since I feel like my only competition will be Ed. Jade and Helen have yet to excel at competitions, except that one win Helen grabbed in the fourth round.

I know that if I win Head of Household, I'm going for Ed. Ed is going to be my target. I'm going to do what I can to make sure he goes. If I even get a small hint that GM won't be supporting me in this process, then, well, I'm going to have to make a tough decision. If I do win and name my two nominees, I'll have two voters, which means if they vote opposite, I break the tie. This is why I want to make sure I really get Helen in on my want to boot Ed next week if I win. If I win, I'm going to be going to her with the plan and I believe she'll support me on it. This is why I probably won't put Helen up, because she'll be the one that keeps the vote at a possible tie and would allow me to boot Ed.

But, let's not get ahead of ourselves! I'm just hoping that it plays out in my favor next week. I'm too close to have everything fall apart now.