GinaMarie Zimmerman [1st]
Jade Pietrantonio [2nd]
Ed Lower [3rd]
Rhian Sugden [4th]
Helen Kim [5th]
Peter Brown [6th]
Judd Daugherty [7th]
Amanda Zuckerman [8th]
Deana Uppal [9th]
Faye Palmer [10th]
Sam Wallace [11th]
Eric Stein [12th]
Bart Spring in 't Veld [13th]
Steven Daigle [14th]
Dan Gheesling [15th]
Jen Johnson [16th]
Amanda's farewell speech was .. scary. As soon as I noticed that she posted this long message, I knew it wasn't going to be good. And even though myself and GM were a big part of the reason she even made it as far she did, she called us out. Really? Okay. It just makes me more content in the fact that I did let this happen; that we let her go out. Bye, ho. I don't have any regrets as far as that is concerned. My concern after reading the message she posted, warning the house about GM and I, was that people would actually believe her. Alot of what she said was the truth. But am I going to admit to any of this? Nope. Am I going to deny? Nope. I'm going to make jokes about it and pass it off in a nonchalant way. I'm not going to give it any mind or pay it much attention.
I will say, though, that everyone still in the house should see from their perspective, that I let her go. I didn't use the Power of Veto on her. I chose the side she wasn't on. My actions last week should be able to buy me some time.
The only person I know that could make a big deal about what Amanda said on her way out is Judd. Judd likes to believe everything he hears. I mean, the guy hated Deana, but when she spilled tea, he took her word for gospel. It's ridiculous. He came to me after the blowup and was like, "So, you and GM, huh?" I half-ignored it and sarcastically replied, "Yeah, I'm just the leader, fall in line, etc." He responded with, "Yeah, I'm just autistic." LOL. I'll give Judd props for the lols right there. I just hope people don't give Amanda's speech much focus. It does worry me though. It really does. It will always be in the back of people's minds and I'll now feel paranoid when someone other than myself or GM wins. What Amanda really robbed me of, was my peace of mind.
I half-wanted to win this Head of Household competition. I didn't want to win it before Amanda's speech, but once that bomb dropped, I kind of didn't mind jumping right in and going for it. I didn't kill myself for it, but I gave a good effort. When the results came out, it was Peter who walked away with the victory for the second time. Speaking of second, that's what GM was .. again. It's frustrating for her. It is for me too, but I think we'll be okay? Peter has stressed to both she and I how he wants Judd out, but I haven't had much of a chat with him since the bombshell. I kind of expect him to replicate his nominations from last time, but he could put me and GM up. I'm going to make sure that doesn't happen. Judd will go up, and he'll be joined by Jade or Helen.
Helen's become extremely lovey-dovey. Before, it was cute as can be. Like, how could you not love Helen? She came across as a total sweetheart. But ever since the Amanda speech, Helen's like magnified her efforts and it comes across extremely fake. She comes to me and is now always like, "Sleeping Beauty! I miss you! I love you so much! We should play Animal Crossing! I just ordered it! Did I mention I love you!?" Not even exaggerating, but you get the idea. GM just told me about what Helen said to her, and it was along the lines of, "Wow! You are such a consistent player, GM! Always second place regardless of how different the competitions are! You're so balanced!" It's too much.
I think that Helen would definitely come for us, but we aren't sure. GM and I have always had the idea that Amanda and Helen have been joined at the hip, maybe even real life friends. Who knows. They live in the same area, they have the same taste in almost everything, they sign on at the same times, and when they would come to GM and I, they would hardcore pitch the same thing in an effort to sway us. It never worked, but the attempts weren't subtle. The reason we aren't sure that Helen would come after us, is because, who else does she honestly have in this game? She isn't on enough. She's not close with Ed. She's not close with Judd. She's not close with Jade. She'd be almost all alone.
If this week goes the way I want it too, I'd love to see Judd or Helen walk out the front door. Judd is my first choice. We all doubted Judd's competition ability, but he's really shown everyone that he's here to play this game. He could very well win the Power of Veto, and if he does, then I want Helen to be the one to go in his place. I really am worried about the Ed situation. The longer he stays in, the higher the chance there is of him making it to the F3, and I want him gone before then. GM has already told me she wanted the F3 to be me, her, and Ed, and I was like um, no. Ed would kill the endurance. No thank you. Perhaps if there was a way to backdoor Ed .. Peter puts Ed up, four votes, Helen and I evict Ed, Peter breaks tie? I don't see it happening, but it'd be amazing.
I did not make up the "Peter is going to backdoor Deana" rumor. I would have nothing to gain from it. Some would argue that I was tricking Peter into putting up Deana. Admirable strategy. But...why would I then warn Deana and try and save her, and try and talk Peter into putting up Amanda - who as you all saw from my HOH week, was clearly my target?
Peter approached me today to try and get to the bottom of things. I told him that I talked to a lot of you about Operation Backdoor Deana...which is true. I told him that I had relayed information with Amanda, GinaMarie, Helen and Ed. I implicated that Helen was the one who started it. For two reasons... 1.) I remember her convo clearly which leads to 2.) It therefore was the first one I could find in chat logs and 2B.) I didn't really care if Helen got nominated. As you saw last week I nominated her and publicly declared I thought she was being shady in the game. So once I found that I stopped looking. Peter asked me who I thought should go up and I actually didn't say any of you - even Helen and that's the 100% truth. I take full responsibility for putting a "Helen seed" in Peter's mind - because honestly that's who I wanted.
I also want to clear this up... Helen, I have nothing personal against you. You and I have had great non-game related talks and those are still all true. Do I think you are playing a shrewd, sneaky BB game? Yes. Yes I do. It's important to mention this here, because this is honestly been one of the meanest-spirited games I have played in. I have been called retarded, autistic, sad, pathetic, a poor excuse for a man - my disease has been made fun of and ridiculed, my family was attacked, and all over a Big Brother game. So Helen, I want to make it very clear that I think you are a great guy and should take improv classes. But I still want you out.
To GinaMarie and Ed - I'm sorry I dragged your names into this fiasco. I think/hope you both know what I think of you and know what I was saying to Peter.
To Peter - onward sir. Someday this will all make sense. I humbly accept your nomination and if it's my week to go - it's my week. But please lets not make this about "lies". It's Big Brother we all have lied, and only 2 of us are going to the end.
Jade. Let's do this again baby.
Good night. JU Double D.
Lmao. My name is nowhere in this. Despite all the drama that's happened tonight before and after nominations, I was able to slip away from the mayhem, still play a part, but get the nominations I desired. It couldn't be more perfect.
The conflict before nominations was pretty funny. Peter came around and we started talking. We mainly discussed the Amanda ordeal since we hadn't and he didn't seem to be taking it too seriously. He said she was just bitter because I didn't save her, etc. Which is probably true too. We got into nomination talk and I suggested that he use his power this week to really get to Judd. I told Peter that it would be in his best interest to find out who leaked the plan to backdoor Deana, and Peter agreed it'd be a good idea. Peter said he was going to try and get the name from Judd. As Peter confronted Judd, he was giving me updates, as was Judd. Judd came to me about what Peter was saying and I was acted as if I had no idea what was happening and was surprised it was still relevant.
It was then, that Judd said that he heard the plan from Helen, GM, and Amanda. He had told this to Peter too. GM was around, and I told GM what Judd said, and she grew annoyed. She wanted to go off on Judd, but decided to hold off until after nominations because Peter wanted to bring it up in his speech. Jade then came around and I told her how I wouldn't be surprised if the nominations ended up being her and Judd again. She asked why Helen wasn't a choice, and I told her because in the past it had been brought to my attention that Helen and Peter were somewhat close. A few minutes later, Peter was updating GM and I on what Jade was saying, and Jade had suggested that to keep it "fair", people who haven't been on the block should go up as the pawn. Who hasn't gone up? GM and I. Thanks for that subtle throw, Jade!
First of all, Jade's dumb to even say it the way she did, because what is Peter going to think? She'll target him when she wins because it's "fair"? He hasn't been nominated either. I get that Jade is trying to save her own skin, but still. As soon as Peter made his nominations, GM laid into Judd. Meanwhile, Peter was too. Peter was yelling at Judd because he believed Judd was lying about where the leak came from and GM was yelling at Judd for saying the plan leaked from her. I was getting information from both GM and Peter, and Judd was crying to me saying how he's sick of being bullied in this game and being yelled at. I kinda' feel bad. I mean, he does get alot of heat. But hey, atleast he's getting it for game-related things and not the personal garbage he got from Amanda.
Power of Veto pickings are taking place now. Of 'course one of me or GM is sitting out this week. Shocker. GM told me she already ran to Peter asking to play. I know GM really wants to win a competition, so I'm not going to hinder her attempt at getting picked to play by asking Peter to pick me. I just hope that she can win this competition so that the power is in our hands.
Peter wins again. That's his, what, fourth win? He's becoming such a huge physical threat in this game. Everyone has their sights set on him. While he was getting the golden medallion put around his neck, everyone else was whispering about his demise. Next round is looking like a likely Peter boot, that is, if we can make sure he doesn't win the Veto. But, holding that talk off until next round. With Peter winning the Veto, that meant he had the option to take down Judd or Jade and send someone home else instead. I actually was itching for a potential Ed boot. Peter could take down Judd, Ed would go up, Helen and I would evict Ed, and Peter would send him home. It'd be a big move and it would have some consequences, but it's a move I think needs to happen soon.
Peter seemed to like the idea of sending Ed out this round, but when I mentioned that Helen would be the other vote to tie it up, he didn't seem too convinced. I can see where he's coming from. Helen is wishy washy. She's a wildcard. You don't ever know what she really wants because she tells everyone something different. Peter got back to me about the plan after we talked about it, and he told me that Helen really wanted Judd out this round because she has a "personal vendetta" against him. Uh, okay. Yeah, let's play this game personal and not strategic. That's great. However, Peter told me that if Helen did win next round she'd be interested in taking out Ed and splitting up Ed and GM. I'm not going to tell GM. I doubt Helen will win, so there's no reason to stir that up.
Because of Helen more so wanting Judd out, Peter said he felt safer just leaving nominations and booting Judd this week, as he has his own personal feud with Judd and would like to eliminate him. Whatever! I'm going to be really mad though, if Ed ends up being my downfall. Ed is the one that's a huge roadblock for me right now. Not because of competitions, but because of how embedded he is in with my #1 ally. I can't have that. Judd is expected to go this round in a 4-0 vote, and then it'll be a battle for Head of Household. I'll give a good attempt for it, but I don't feel like I desperately need it. If I somehow win, which is possible seeing as Peter can't play and it's me and GM against Ed, Jade, and Helen, then I might have to get really dirty next round; down and dirty.
