JOURNAL: WEEK 8

[Judd]

IT'S ABOUT FUCKING TIME.

That is all...for now. But here's a tease, Amanda is meaner to me then Deana.

[Judd]

So I finally won my first HOH.

And it was based on how well I knew former houseguests. Ironic that the bitches all said I'm socially awkward and nobody likes me - yet I knew most people's personalities. Who knew Jen was such a firecracker though? I wish she had been active quicker, I like her.

Inevitably, everyone came out of the woodwork and wanted to chat with ole Judd. Even "Always-Invisible" Helen dropped me a line. Do you guys remember Helen?

But my favorite has to be Amanda's:

11:14:41 PM Amanda: Hey sexy
11:14:45 PM Amanda: 
11:14:51 PM Jason Geis: hey
11:15:15 PM Amanda: i.imgur.com/jXv1AGR.gif
11:15:18 PM Amanda: lets get kinky tonight
11:15:42 PM Jason Geis: so weird!
11:15:46 PM Amanda: You no lke?
11:15:59 PM Amanda: We can roleplay
11:16:02 PM Amanda: one of your plays
11:16:08 PM Amanda: since you are a drama teacher
11:16:31 PM Jason Geis: is this the same girl that yelled at me about god? 
11:16:44 PM Amanda: Noooo
11:17:00 PM Amanda: I wasn't myself
11:17:01 PM Amanda: that day
11:17:02 PM Amanda: you know
11:17:16 PM Amanda: sexual frustration
11:17:49 PM Jason Geis: ha, i see
11:18:31 PM Amanda: You have so much strength now
11:18:41 PM Jason Geis: i do?
11:18:48 PM Amanda: Like Zeus
11:19:00 PM Amanda: back to back wins
11:19:03 PM Amanda: amazing job
11:19:27 PM Jason Geis: thanks
11:19:43 PM Jason Geis: i told you i didn't suck
11:19:47 PM Jason Geis: 
11:19:50 PM Amanda: oh yeah
11:19:53 PM Amanda: you proved me wrong
11:20:27 PM Amanda: You got so much skills
11:20:30 PM Amanda: I never knew you had
11:20:40 PM Amanda: Why you been hiding them from me?
11:21:17 PM Jason Geis: we all have our strategies i suppose
11:21:35 PM Amanda: You can't hide things from mama
11:21:35 PM Amanda: now
11:21:49 PM Jason Geis: busted
11:22:00 PM Amanda: you got to keep mama safe too
11:22:04 PM Amanda: like mama kept you safe
11:22:09 PM Amanda: 
11:22:31 PM Jason Geis: ha
11:22:56 PM Amanda: don't do that to me
11:23:01 PM Amanda: do you really want to hurt me?
11:23:03 PM Jason Geis: deana didn't do you any favors on her way out
11:23:16 PM Amanda: Deana loves you
11:23:18 PM Amanda: baby
11:23:22 PM Jason Geis: ummm
11:23:34 PM Amanda: You tried to keep her safe remember
11:23:42 PM Amanda: and get me backdoored
11:23:46 PM Amanda: you did that out of love
11:24:15 PM Jason Geis: busted again lol
11:24:25 PM Amanda: did you do that because you love me?
11:24:28 PM Amanda: 
11:24:54 PM Jason Geis: no i did it because you guys talk shit about me
11:25:04 PM Amanda: =-O
11:25:10 PM Amanda: I say nothing but kind words about you Judd
11:25:16 PM Jason Geis: c'mon
11:25:18 PM Amanda: You are very accomplished in life
11:25:52 PM Amanda: Remember that bb game we were in together
11:26:02 PM Amanda: we bonded
11:26:05 PM Amanda: what happened to that?
11:26:24 PM Amanda: You abandoned me here
11:26:37 PM Jason Geis: wait,
11:26:45 PM Jason Geis: i'm confused
11:27:04 PM Amanda: This isn't the first time we played together
11:27:22 PM Jason Geis: really?
11:27:28 PM Amanda: Yeah curious?
11:27:40 PM Jason Geis: of course!
11:28:24 PM Amanda: Who was your bff in starz?
11:28:42 PM Amanda: Who had your back when you needed it the most?
11:28:54 PM Amanda: Who went out of there way to get to final 3?
11:29:52 PM Amanda: JGL
11:30:02 PM Jason Geis: whoa
11:30:26 PM Jason Geis: who is this?
11:30:26 PM Amanda: 24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m94nkgGgZb1qg462ao4_250.gif
11:30:28 PM Amanda: did you miss me?
11:30:43 PM Jason Geis: chloe
11:30:55 PM Amanda: Help your little sister out
11:31:30 PM Amanda: Didn't you miss me?
11:31:38 PM Amanda: We both got screwed by the same guy
11:31:49 PM Jason Geis: totally
11:32:17 PM Amanda: Now we can win together here!
11:35:53 PM Amanda: I will buy a ticket to your plays
11:36:21 PM Jason Geis: ha
11:36:42 PM Amanda: why that?
11:36:43 PM Jason Geis: i honestly don't know what i'm doing yet
11:37:04 PM Amanda: really?
11:38:19 PM Jason Geis: yes
11:38:23 PM Amanda: why is that
11:38:36 PM Amanda: you got to do whats best for you jgl
11:38:37 PM Amanda: judd
11:39:40 PM Jason Geis: whats best for me in your opinion?
11:40:11 PM Amanda: Well
11:40:20 PM Amanda: for starters you keep me off the block
11:40:49 PM Amanda: because you scratch my back
11:40:55 PM Amanda: i scratch yours
11:41:11 PM Amanda: also keep in mind when i was hoh
11:41:15 PM Amanda: i could have done it safe
11:41:17 PM Jason Geis: ok then who?
11:41:23 PM Amanda: but i made a big move
11:41:39 PM Jason Geis: oh i'm not gonna be safe
11:42:01 PM Amanda: play it big
11:42:28 PM Jason Geis: like...
11:43:11 PM Amanda: Well Ed is a good friend of mine
11:43:27 PM Amanda: lets not let him touch the block this round okay?
11:43:42 PM Jason Geis: he is?
11:44:01 PM Amanda: why is that surprising?
11:44:12 PM Jason Geis: you nommed him
11:44:30 PM Amanda: thats the past judd
11:44:34 PM Amanda: you can't hold onto grudges
11:44:38 PM Jason Geis: all he talks about is getting you out
11:44:39 PM Amanda: you will never live
11:44:54 PM Amanda: that doesnt sound like him
11:45:27 PM Amanda: Who do you think would put you up
11:45:29 PM Amanda: if they won
11:46:17 PM Jason Geis: pretty much everyone
11:46:24 PM Amanda: not me
11:46:27 PM Amanda: i'll tell you
11:46:38 PM Amanda: but you might take it the wrong way
11:46:43 PM Jason Geis: its pretty clear to me i have no real allies
11:46:47 PM Jason Geis: nah
11:46:56 PM Amanda: same reason i didnt put you up
11:46:58 PM Amanda: my first time
11:47:29 PM Jason Geis: i'm not a threat, a non issue, i cant win
11:47:38 PM Amanda: well you proved it wrong
11:47:38 PM Amanda: now
11:47:55 PM Jason Geis: it was never right
11:48:01 PM Amanda: why were you holding back
11:48:09 PM Amanda: it was right
11:48:11 PM Amanda: prejury rounds
11:48:22 PM Amanda: you didnt have to lift a nail
11:48:35 PM Jason Geis: exactly
11:48:46 PM Amanda: and i did all the hard work
11:48:48 PM Amanda: to protect you
11:48:54 PM Amanda: to get you to this point!
11:48:59 PM Jason Geis: you did?
11:49:12 PM Amanda: I sure did
11:49:17 PM Jason Geis: well thanks
11:49:28 PM Amanda: oh anytime
11:49:30 PM Amanda: theres more of it
11:49:35 PM Amanda: in the future for you judd
11:49:59 PM Jason Geis: who are my enemies?
11:50:21 PM Amanda: Who has never been on the block?
11:54:16 PM Amanda: Dont do anything you will regret judd
11:55:16 PM Jason Geis: you aren't suggesting anything though
11:55:53 PM Amanda: you'll regret it
11:55:58 PM Amanda: regret it
11:56:18 PM Jason Geis: regret what?
11:56:30 PM Amanda: making a dumb move
11:57:05 PM Jason Geis: so you're saying we're f2?
11:57:38 PM Amanda: not just f2
11:57:41 PM Amanda: i would give you the win!
11:57:47 PM Jason Geis: how?
11:57:56 PM Amanda: I would do what I did in jury
11:57:58 PM Amanda: like in starz
11:58:04 PM Amanda: remember
11:58:58 PM Jason Geis: so deana was lying to me about all the stuff you said?
11:59:14 PM Amanda: which parts?
11:59:53 PM Jason Geis: that i'm socially awkward, a psycho, a goat...
12:00:16 AM Amanda: you really believe I would say something that mean?
12:00:24 AM Amanda: I never bring it to a personal level judd
12:00:49 AM Jason Geis: i'm just asking
12:01:04 AM Amanda: and im telling you
12:01:53 AM Amanda: you cant be victim all the time
12:02:04 AM Jason Geis: i'm not
12:02:28 AM Jason Geis: i am being careful
12:02:43 AM Jason Geis: so not you, not ed
12:02:59 AM Amanda: what do you mean?
12:03:08 AM Jason Geis: for noms
12:03:26 AM Amanda: because we are after each other?
12:04:00 AM Jason Geis: no i'm saying…you're saying not to put up you or ed
12:04:57 AM Amanda: well I plan to get ed out in MY hoh
12:05:08 AM Jason Geis: ha ok
12:05:17 AM Amanda: will you let that happen?
12:06:38 AM Jason Geis: pretty cocky
12:06:58 AM Amanda: its called confidence
12:09:47 AM Amanda: Call your mom and dad
12:09:52 AM Amanda: ask them who you should put up
12:10:15 AM Amanda: do you live alone?
12:10:21 AM Amanda: do you have kids?
12:11:47 AM Jason Geis: i live with my sister for now - i'm gay, no kids
12:11:55 AM Amanda: single?
12:12:07 AM Jason Geis: yep
12:12:12 AM Amanda: lonely?
12:12:39 AM Jason Geis: i've been sick and in the hospital since last starz
12:12:45 AM Amanda: cancer?
12:12:54 AM Jason Geis: thats why i wasnt in all stars
12:13:06 AM Amanda: you have cancer?!
12:13:38 AM Jason Geis: no…i have a nervous system disease
12:13:46 AM Amanda: did orgs cause that?
12:13:56 AM Jason Geis: ha
12:14:01 AM Jason Geis: maybe
12:14:05 AM Amanda: did i cause it?!
12:14:23 AM Jason Geis: yes
12:14:37 AM Amanda: please
12:14:41 AM Amanda: I am the cure
12:17:57 AM Jason Geis: not funny
12:18:03 AM Amanda: ew
12:18:07 AM Amanda: sensitive victim we have here
12:19:09 AM Amanda: what would you do if i won veto?
12:19:18 AM Amanda: be pissed?
12:19:40 AM Jason Geis: what are you doing?
12:19:56 AM Amanda: you called me a bully
12:19:58 AM Amanda: 
12:20:18 AM Jason Geis: i did?
12:20:18 AM Amanda: I can be a better person Judd
12:20:46 AM Amanda: I wanna go with you
12:24:50 AM Amanda: part of me is stronger
12:25:03 AM Amanda: part of me is wiser
12:26:24 AM Amanda: don't do me dirty judd
12:29:21 AM Amanda: j
12:29:22 AM Amanda: u
12:29:23 AM Amanda: d
12:29:24 AM Amanda: d
12:29:24 AM Amanda: d
12:29:25 AM Amanda: d
12:29:25 AM Amanda: d
12:29:26 AM Amanda: dd
12:29:27 AM Amanda: d
12:29:28 AM Amanda: !!!
12:29:31 AM Jason Geis: ha
12:29:33 AM Amanda: wake up
12:29:43 AM Amanda: who is keeping you busy from me?
12:29:57 AM Jason Geis:
12:30:05 AM Amanda: omg
12:30:07 AM Amanda: we like the same band!
12:32:39 AM Amanda:
12:33:12 AM Jason Geis: ugh
12:47:43 AM Amanda: ugh
12:47:45 AM Amanda: fuck
12:47:58 AM Jason Geis: what?
12:48:13 AM Amanda: im just done
12:49:08 AM Amanda: enough is enough
12:49:15 AM Amanda: no more mind games
12:49:56 AM Jason Geis: ok
12:50:04 AM Amanda: stop it
12:50:52 AM Jason Geis: ok
12:50:58 AM Amanda: seriously
12:54:32 AM Jason Geis: ok no more mind games

I know its a lot to read so, as always, I highlighted my favorite parts. The yellow section is my absolute favorite, where my disease is funny to her. Essentially this conversation is her taking credit for me getting this far, and threatening me not to put her up. 

It did not work.

[Judd]

I discussed my thoughts with Ed, Rhian and Jade and told them I wanted Amanda and Helen up. They immediately agreed and that was that. I told them the replacement nom would be GinaMarie - everyone agreed.

Pretty easy week and for sure one of my big threats would be leaving. 

Needless to say the nominees were not happy. Helen immediately went invisible so she could play Pokemon. But Amanda...oh Amanda:

3:05:22 PM Amanda: Keep being a victim
3:05:32 PM Amanda: You are 36 why don't you man up
3:05:42 PM Jason Geis: i'm fine
3:05:58 PM Amanda: Obviously not
3:06:02 PM Jason Geis: i just think you're a hypocrite 
3:06:21 PM Amanda: I don't give a rats ass what you think about me
3:06:29 PM Jason Geis: cool
3:06:29 PM Amanda: You are not important
3:06:43 PM Jason Geis: none of us are
3:06:47 PM Amanda: I hope you don't get another injury
3:06:52 PM Amanda: While playing this game
3:07:00 PM Amanda: Be careful with those fingers
3:08:05 PM Jason Geis: 12:00:24 AM Amanda: I never bring it to a personal level judd
3:08:22 PM Amanda: Aww am I bothering you?
3:08:26 PM Amanda: Awwww poor Judd
3:08:26 PM Jason Geis: nope
3:08:35 PM Amanda: I hope that didn't hurt
3:08:48 PM Jason Geis: i think you misunderstand
3:08:51 PM Amanda: Well it can't since you can't feel much
3:08:57 PM Amanda: To begin with
3:09:37 PM Jason Geis: careful…god is watching
3:09:43 PM Amanda: I would be so annoyed if I was your sister
3:09:53 PM Amanda: To have to babysit my 36 year old brother
3:10:04 PM Amanda: Who can't get his own place
3:10:08 PM Amanda: Plays orgs at 36
3:10:11 PM Amanda: That's pathetic
3:10:27 PM Amanda: Why don't you grow up
3:10:28 PM Jason Geis: actually i own this place
3:10:39 PM Amanda: Stop pretending you are special ed to people
3:10:41 PM Jason Geis: she stays here rent free
3:10:57 PM Amanda: Yeah I would like to see receipts
3:10:59 PM Jason Geis: i'm not
3:11:13 PM Amanda: Please everyone says it behind your back
3:11:20 PM Jason Geis: what?
3:11:32 PM Jason Geis: that i'm pretending?
3:11:42 PM Amanda: That you are an idiot
3:11:46 PM Amanda: Who thinks it's funny
3:12:00 PM Amanda: To act like he is autistic
3:12:07 PM Amanda: But who knows maybe you really are
3:12:13 PM Jason Geis: nah
3:12:14 PM Amanda: You should be proud of the things you accomplished
3:12:21 PM Amanda: As a autistic human being
3:12:27 PM Amanda: Bravo
3:12:35 PM Jason Geis: if i were i would have believed you
3:12:51 PM Amanda: Please you already believe it
3:12:57 PM Amanda: Because it's true
3:13:05 PM Amanda: Keep hiding behind a computer screen
3:13:21 PM Jason Geis: i mean about you being my ally
3:13:24 PM Amanda: Thinking you are awesome
3:13:37 PM Amanda: Shouldn't you start a family
3:13:42 PM Amanda: Get married
3:13:58 PM Amanda: Why don't you move on with your life
3:13:59 PM Jason Geis: whats wrong with feeling good about yourself?
3:14:18 PM Amanda: Oh you only feel good about yourself when you win challenges right
3:14:22 PM Jason Geis: i'm very successful in life thanks
3:14:24 PM Amanda: You went on a power trip last week
3:14:33 PM Jason Geis: i did?
3:14:33 PM Amanda: Thinking you run it
3:14:42 PM Jason Geis: how so?
3:14:44 PM Amanda: thinking you could get me backdoored
3:14:50 PM Amanda: Waiting all day for peter
3:14:55 PM Amanda: To tell him to backdoor me
3:15:27 PM Jason Geis: thats not a power trip, thats playing the game
3:15:34 PM Amanda: Lmao
3:15:45 PM Amanda: Omg yeah on what day is it
3:15:49 PM Amanda: You start playing the game
3:15:55 PM Amanda: Because you just been a wallflower
3:15:59 PM Amanda: This whole time
3:16:09 PM Amanda: People were like I do not want to waste an hoh on Judd
3:16:11 PM Jason Geis: i've been playing the whole time
3:16:23 PM Amanda: No you have not
3:16:23 PM Amanda: That's a fact
3:16:27 PM Jason Geis: thats great
3:16:30 PM Amanda: I bet the hosts and house calls
3:16:35 PM Amanda: Think you suck
3:16:43 PM Amanda: That Sam and Faye deserves jury
3:16:48 PM Amanda: Over your sorry ass
3:16:52 PM Amanda: Talk about a waste
3:16:55 PM Jason Geis: maybe
3:17:47 PM Jason Geis: because i'm not crazy and weird with everyone?
3:18:59 PM Amanda: Crazy is a loose term
3:19:00 PM Amanda: Wouldn't you say
3:19:08 PM Jason Geis: i guess
3:19:48 PM Jason Geis: i think everyone talks about everyone in this game
3:20:09 PM Amanda: That's wrong
3:20:17 PM Jason Geis: really?
3:20:37 PM Jason Geis: because everyone trashed you last night
3:20:59 PM Amanda: Did they?
3:21:03 PM Amanda: Well that's a surprise
3:21:13 PM Jason Geis: no its not
3:21:19 PM Jason Geis: its a game
3:22:10 PM Amanda: That's funny because I am getting such warm support
3:23:11 PM Jason Geis: this isn't personal - you picked a weird character thing to play, we didn't gel, you were trying to get me out - so now you're up. Game.
3:23:24 PM Amanda: Weird character?
3:23:31 PM Amanda: What's wrong with Amanda?
3:23:40 PM Jason Geis: well good maybe you'll stay and get your revenge
3:24:02 PM Jason Geis: your playing her weird
3:24:23 PM Jason Geis: i haven't ever had a real convo with you
3:24:54 PM Jason Geis: i mean you're funny, but crazy
3:24:55 PM Amanda: I don't want a real convo with you though
3:25:03 PM Amanda: You are hard to talk to
3:25:03 PM Jason Geis: ok
3:25:10 PM Jason Geis: no i'm not
3:25:14 PM Amanda: I don't really want to sit and talk about how such a victim you are
3:25:18 PM Amanda: With your injury
3:25:21 PM Jason Geis: i'm an open book
3:25:32 PM Amanda: Like are you working for jury votes?
3:25:39 PM Amanda: Because you are sick you should win?
3:25:43 PM Jason Geis: no
3:25:47 PM Amanda: That's a conveying way to play
3:26:53 PM Jason Geis: thats only come up when people talk to me about personal stuff and i don't talk about it like i'm a victim. i'm very happy with life.
3:27:07 PM Jason Geis: and i think you mean conniving
3:27:07 PM Amanda: You don't seem happy though
3:27:16 PM Amanda: You seem disturbed
3:27:27 PM Jason Geis: how would you know?
3:27:27 PM Amanda: I'm on my phone so spell check that
3:27:40 PM Amanda: Because I am god
3:27:44 PM Amanda: That's how
3:27:49 PM Amanda: Anymore questions?
3:28:01 PM Amanda: So what's your plan after I go?
3:28:04 PM Jason Geis: and you don't seem disturbed?
3:28:20 PM Amanda: I'm cool over here
3:28:24 PM Jason Geis: cool
3:28:43 PM Jason Geis: me too
3:30:16 PM Amanda: That's thing
3:30:19 PM Amanda: You are not
3:30:39 PM Jason Geis: no no I am
3:31:25 PM Amanda: If you say so
3:33:39 PM Jason Geis: i don't have to. i am a very successful guy in chicago. I own my own theater, I am sought after in advertising, I have survived something very profound, lost 200 lbs - i'm very cool with life. 
3:33:52 PM Amanda: Lmao
3:33:55 PM Amanda: Hahahahah
3:34:04 PM Amanda: So accomplished
3:34:09 PM Jason Geis: i am

This one is really worth the full read. This person is certifiable crazy and a real trashy bitch. I honestly feel like this was way too far. I know she thinks she's being funny, but this really crossed a line and is the very definition of cyber-bullying. I am glad she's gone and I personally think she should be kicked out.

Anyway, unanimous vote blah blah blah. This round reminded me why I retired from ORGs - there are some immature, awful trolls that play these games. And lose.