Diary Room Entries #8

[Rhian]

I just threw that challenge the best I could. I tried to fill it in based on what I thought was right, then shuffled my answers around. If I come close to winning like last time, I'm going to freak out. I can not win this Head of Household competition. I just can't, it would blow my game up. There is definitely some tension brewing under the surface for just about everyone in the house. After Deana's speech on her way out of the house, it definitely ruffled the feathers of GM and Judd; who are pissed, like, really livid. GM wants Amanda's head served on a platter, because she thinks Amanda had to do with Deana slamming her relationship with Ed. Now, GM is growing paranoid that Amanda is ignoring her.

I should be safe regardless of who wins the challenge? I would probably be more nervous if Amanda or Helen won. The only reason I'd have a secret want for Amanda to win is because I know she would have her sights set on getting Ed out and perhaps nominating Ed and GM to get the job done. It'd be the perfect reason to evict Ed then and there, because I'd be keeping GM. I really hope that's Amanda's thought process, as opposed to Ed and Judd being her potential nominations. Ed winning would also be great, because his nominations would probably be Amanda and Helen, and Amanda could be evicted as the larger threat and I could still somehow salvage a relationship with Helen.

Out of everyone, I definitely don't want Judd to win. He was the most annoying person ever after he won the Power of Veto. I mean, it was the POV. He treated it like it was the HOH key. He came up to me and was interrogating me and accusing me of things that Sam said on his way out the door, which was that PM he sent out to a select few people. Judd was like, "So, Sam told me you hated me?" Uh, okay? I told Judd that Sam said alot of things, like Faye and I being very close and that we were in an alliance with Deana. Look what happened when I got co-HOH with Ed? Right. That's why Sam's on Pre-Jury, because he didn't know what was really happening. It was all assumption.

[Rhian]

ARE YOU KIDDING ME. I'M THROWING UP. OH MY GOD.

[Kat]

[Shadow]

Oh my God. Sally.

[Rhian]

Amanda and Helen are up. All is going accordingly this week. It didn't take much convincing, but myself, Jade, and Ed made sure to hammer in the fact that those two are close. Beyond that, It's gotten to the point where I'm disliking throwing competitions. Head of Household victories would be reckless, but Power of Veto wins shouldn't be bad, right? I did try to win this competition, so I hope I can come out on top. The dilemma that would come with winning this challenge is that would I or wouldn't I save Amanda from possible eviction? I've thought it over and I've decided that should I win, it'll be a long shot for me to remove Amanda from the block. It's time to send her packing. Amanda's been a good vote to have, and while I've helped her a huge amount in making it to this stage of the game, it could be disastrous to let her stay any longer.

The goal is for Amanda to leave. Amanda has become quite a nuisance this week. She's gone to Judd and suggested to him that people who haven't been on the block should go up, which includes myself. I don't appreciate that. On top of that, Amanda's taken it upon herself to attack GM's game, saying that she's playing too low key, and that myself and GM need to put ourselves "out there more". Um. Let's take gameplay advice from the girl who can't keep her mouth shut and has been a target for weeks. The fact of the matter is, I can do what Amanda has tried to do, except do it under everyone's noses. Everyone looks at me like an ally as far as I can tell, so if I can keep it up, and be that silent but deadly force that ends people's games in the middle of the night, I'm going to do that; as opposed to getting my co-workers to film OTT ceremonies for me.

I do have something planned should there be potential fallout if I win Veto and don't use it. If Amanda or Helen get mad at me, then I'll have no problems letting them know that Judd said he was going to stick GM up as the replacement, which means a member of the Femmes would leave regardless. Which is the truth. Judd told myself, Ed, and Jade the night he won HOH, that GinaMarie would more than likely be the replacement nominee. And let's face it, if Amanda and Helen don't know that I love GM more than either of them by now, then they've been playing this game while under a rock. If all goes well in this Veto competition, then these next few rounds are going to be about placing myself strategically and certain people winning the right competitions.

[Rhian]

I won! Yay! I was surprised that I was the only one to finish. It was a tricky challenge but it wasn't impossible. Shir was a sneakster in editing random posts that she didn't do anything to! My strategy was to just CTRL+F the page and find the posts that were edited, and then look over the post. If the post was huge, I'd quote it and look at the coding, but if it was a short post, I'd just hover the text and images as quick as I could. When I finished going through all the forums, I only had eleven of the pieces to the maze and was missing one, and that was about 25-30 minutes in. I spent around 10 minutes having to go back in all the forums to look for the one I missed. And the maze? Harder than I thought. I had to restart three times because I kept going the wrong direction.

As soon as I won, Amanda came to me and simply said, "Be sure that GM isn't the replacement! Please!" It was a little weird. I mean, if GM was the replacement, who's to say I'd use it? She had to know that I wouldn't. I spoke to Helen this afternoon, and I told her that I wasn't going to use it. I told her how Judd said the replacement would be GM. Helen said she understood my decision. I could definitely tell that Helen was disappointed, but who wouldn't be? I wanted to make sure Helen and I were still on good terms, and she said we were fine, but that she was scared being on the block and if she did leave, she was happy to have met people like me, GM, and Amanda.

Overall, I'm fine with Amanda leaving. I just want to make sure that with Amanda gone, Helen will remain close with myself and GM. Helen wouldn't work with Ed or Judd, and that's fine, because those are the two people I'd most like to see leave in the next few weeks. I honestly really want an Ed boot, and soon. I feel like a Judd boot is more realistic to happen first, so if that happens, I'm game and all in. But before we get there, I have to still get through the rest of this round. There's still tonight, and knowing Amanda, she won't go out quietly. I'm expecting some drama. I just hope that Amanda doesn't focus her attention in my direction. I can't afford to have bombs dropped on my game right now.