Week 6

[Helen]

I'm back!

During the endurance challenge my wi-fi decided to get disconnected during the fifth hour and it totally screwed me over, but quite frankly ... I'm glad it did. Had it not died out on me, I probably would've gone only up to 8 hours or 9 at the most and call it a day, and that would have made me completely upset to waste all that time for nothing! Anyways, endurance comp kept me up so late that I decided to call in sick to work -- omg! Horrible. But I am sick, somewhere along the road my allergies picked up again and I can barely breathe through my nose. Ed won HOH and he was the only person I wanted NOT to win but thanks to Rhian's co-HOH status there may be some hope for me to stay. I have A LOT of catching up to do with this game, but MORE catching up with homework, ahh! Going to put this sick day to some good use!

Be back soon.

[Helen]

UGH I HATE MY STUPID MAC! I'LL START WRITING A REALLY LONG DIARY ROOM ENTRY AND I'LL ACCIDENTALLY SCROLL BACK TO THE PREVIOUS PAGE AND I LOSE ALL MY TEXT!

[Helen]

Okay, TAKE TWO!

So I'm super behind but here goes! Last round, Amanda won HOH, nominated Sed, Faye won Veto and kept nominations the same, and Sam was evicted. Most of all that is fine with me -- Sam was a huge challenge threat and with him out of the way that's one less power player I have to worry about. However, I was SUPER SUPER SUPER concerned with the fact that everyone wanted to keep Ed! I've been suspicious of Rhian and GinaMarie having an alliance or some type of side deal -- the fact that they all wanted to keep him just fueled my paranoia even more, and since they wanted him in, I wanted him OUT! This round came down to Faye, Judd and Deana VS. Rhian, Jade and Peter -- with me as a swing vote! Who would've thought, lol. Rhian kept telling me that Sam was going around telling people that we (Femme Fatale) were in an alliance and he was going after us where Ed wasn't and blah blah blah, but the way I saw it -- Sam had basically made himself look like a fool that who would want to work with him? I discussed my options with Amanda and we both decided that even though Ed was probably the bigger threat to our games, it would be best to work with Sam. When she said that though, I was basically dead set on evicting Ed, but then I remembered that Faye told me one of the votes they had was Judd's and I just didn't buy it. Judd is such a random wild card that I never know where his head is. I tried talking to Judd myself to see if he was actually voting Ed out or not but he just signed off when I im'ed him, which made me way too nervous. I was NOT going to try to get Ed out and have it be a 3 - 4 vote with me on the losing side, talk about embarrassing! In the end it turned out that Judd DID vote to evict Ed, but whatever -- if he actually spoke game with me we could've executed the plan! Voting Sam out would not only have pissed Rhian and GM out, but it would also have made it look like I was working with Faye, Judd and Deana, and being affiliated with those three is the last thing I want to happen. I definitely feel they had way too much control of Amanda's HOH and I'm somewhat annoyed that they kept pushing for Ed to stay and NOW look -- he's HOH and Amanda and Faye are nominated!

Amanda and Faye being nominated is basically the worst case scenario for my game (because you know, EVERYTHING is about my game ). Amanda is quite possibly my closest ally in this game, so I need her to stay as LONG as she can. The second she leaves it's going to be a completely different game for me! She's also a competition beast, and can definitely give people like Ed, Rhian and GM a run for their money. While (for now) I'm completely devoted to Femme Fatale, Faye is also a great ally! We have an unofficial bond being only two hours away from each other, and even though she doesn't win many comps and her social game is nowhere as great as mine (lol just kidding), I definitely like her. Not only are they both great friends, I need them BOTH to make jury! If for whatever reason I find myself in the finals and they're not there with me, then I feel like they'd be guaranteed votes for me! Yes it's horrible for me to be thinking like that but Jesus Christ you need four votes to win this game and I'd already have half of my votes if they were in the end with me! Well, maybe I have Faye's vote -- she hasn't spoken to me or responded to any of my messages since she was nominated AND she picked Peter to play Veto. An interesting choice, so I've always been willing to work things out with Faye. Veto results should be up tomorrow and OH BOY will it have been a tough one! Four of the six players have already won a comp, Peter (and GM) always seem to have runners-up luck and always comes close to winning but never does, and Judd is ... lol. I just want to know who will be on the block post-veto and how I can go about from planning there on out.

Looking down the road, there's going to be nine players left, so I need to keep a fine balance (in favor of me) of who I can win against/who I need on my side for votes. It just so happens that the people I CAN'T win against are apparently my Final Four. GM is a HUGE competition beast (the fact she lasted 8 hours in the endurance comp terrifies me), and everyone else likes them as evidenced by them both winning temptation. Rhian and Peter are getting quite close and he can easily sneak himself into the end if I'm not careful of him either. I don't know where Ed fits into any of this; he's not aligned with any combination of Faye, Judd and Deana, Amanda and I have nothing solid with him, so that leaves Rhian, GM and Peter. Judd and Jade are worthless, I'd like to be able to string one of them along as long as I can just to be an easy person to win against but I should NEVER underestimate anyone.

This could be a very crucial round for me as Faye and Amanda both play an important role in my game, and if I do lose one of them I'll have to fill in that void with someone else. I also need to figure out what big move I can make, and own it. Ugh I don't want to be a pussy bitch like Andy, lol.

[Helen]

Peter won Veto ... ugh! Lol. Good for him, though! Shows he's a great competitor (bad for me in my book though: the more great competitors I come across the higher you go on my list of who needs to go lol!), but good for him ... I know he's been DYING to get in on the Veto action! He's been real consistent with all of his performances in challenges, so this just cements him as a solid player. Peter is definitely someone I want on my side, but I feel like someone as competitive as he is must already have a group of his own he's playing with, I just wonder who. Maybe he and Rhian have something solid? LOL I don't know why Rhian is always the center of my conspiracy theories! I feel kind of bad for not fully trusting her especially since I'm having a fun conversation with her right now! But whatever! Even though I'm happy for Peter I wish Amanda or Faye won it because I hate knowing that one of them may be leaving. I'm most likely going to vote Faye out because most of my allegiance is to Amanda, but Faye leaving sucks! As long as she's around she' always be targeted before me! I know Amanda is Ed's target for the week, I'm trying to figure out what is the likelihood of Peter using the Veto on Faye and me getting put up as a replacement? But that wouldn't make sense because if Faye came off, Rhian would be making the replacement nominee since she's her nominee so I should be fine ... bah! Horrible turn of events this week, if this had just happened next week when we're all in jury then it'd all be groovy. I can't believe Judd and Jade will be progressing further over Faye or Amanda. Lame.

[Helen]

Is this lady serious?



1.) I actually do want to win challenges (and I've won one, thank you very much). It's not my fault the people I'm playing against are freaking OLYMPIANS and just about whoop my ass in everything!

2.) I'm not setting ANYONE up to get blood on their hands, if that happens then it's by their own doing. But if you getting blood happens to give a houseguests a poor impression of you and a better one of me, then by all means I'll take it.

3.) Yes, there was some strategy behind that Disney post. I was inactive for three fucking days and missed an HOH. I'm not dumb.

[Helen]

So with everything out of my hands and my two California girls up on the block, I voted to evict Faye It breaks my heart, and this was definitely the first eviction that made me feel really uncomfortable. On the other hand, I'm glad that it happened now instead of further down the line. I would hate to ever be in the position of having to put her up on the block (if the situation ever presented itself), so I'm glad that her eviction isn't a direct result of my action. But it aint over till it's over! Results will hopefully be up early tomorrow. Next round should be interesting!