Diary Room Entries #5

[Rhian]

The fact that I really tried to throw that Head of Household competition and still got third place is really sad on all the other housemates' parts. Amanda even didn't want to win, and she won. The four of us, Amanda, Helen, GinaMarie, and myself would've probably been safe had anyone else won the challenge and we would've coasted through this week. I also completely forgot to add, that Helen decided to name us the Femme Fatales. That's hilarious, considering GM and my other alliance with Faye. I guess we'll replace that one since we hardly bother with her nowadays. This is a four I'd like to go a little distance with, but Amanda has to be dealt with before we get closer to the end. She'll be a huge threat.

Amanda has been panicking and doesn't know what to do this week for nominations. Deana is pushing Ed to go up and be the target, while others are pushing for Sam to go up and be the target. GM clearly wants Ed to stay and Sam to go. I don't know what I want. I mean, I'd prefer Sam to go, yeah. I feel like I have a better relationship with Ed? Sam to me just comes across shady the majority of the time and I'd really prefer it if he left. However, Amanda has noted that she has a better relationship with him as opposed to Ed. Late last night, the new Femme Fatales all had a discussion about what to do. It didn't really seem to go anywhere and Amanda left wanting to sleep on her decision.

This morning I got online to a worried GinaMarie. I mean, this girl is obsessed with Ed. I love GM, don't get me wrong, but she like really loves Ed and doesn't want him to go. I personally don't want him to go either. GM made the bond with Ed, just as I made the bond with Peter and I know I'd be upset if Peter could potentially be going up and out aswell. GM and I talked and we went over talking points to goto Amanda with before she makes her decisions with nominations. We agreed that Amanda seems to value my opinion more, so I sent her a very long message with different scenarios and points to consider before she does nominations officially. We'll just have to wait and see.

[Rhian]

Oct 8, 2013 10:06:28 GMT -5 Rhian said:

Now that I'm fully awake and not half asleep, I read some of what we all said last night!

I understand the Ed idea, and I'd fully support it if that's what you really wanted! I meant everything I said last night. However, there are some cons to this. I know the big pro was that GM can't play in the Veto or vote to evict, but if you're the one to nominate Ed and he gets evicted, that could splinter our alliance and cause some trouble for us with GM, plus our other side allies that also want to see Sam leave the game this week.

I think the good thing about keeping Ed in, is that he is in a feud with Deana and Faye, among others. Keep those girls in and keep Ed in, and if Deana or Faye get power [Deana more likely to], they will nominate Ed and that would be a week to get him out. That way, Ed's blood isn't on your hands, it's on there's, and any resentment GM could have would be directed towards them, not you. I want more than anything for the Femme Fatale's to survive. No conflict!

So with all of that in consideration, where does that leave nominations? Our side voters to our 4some: Deana, Peter, and Faye all would evict Sam from the game this week. That gives you three votes off the bat plus Helen, GM, and I. All you need are 4 votes for the majority since GM can't vote.

I re-read what you were telling me about Sam last night, but he can't be trusted, babes. He's already burned GM, Peter, and myself. Who knows who else he's burned. He ratted GM out to Eric about GM wanting him out, he sold Peter out to me about being "ghost" and how we could have evicted him last week [despite the two have a "deal"], and he ran to Deana and told her everything I said about people saying Deana's name two rounds ago [and Deana told me].

In addition to those facts, GM also told me this morning that what you said to Sam last night, he told her. He asked her not to tell anyone that he told her either. This all ties in to the fact that Sam has loose lips. BUT PLEASE, PLEASE DO NOT MENTION THIS. I don't even think GM wanted me to say anything because she doesn't want Sam after her.

I mean, you can have a good "relationship" with Sam, but that doesn't mean you have to trust him. Sam and I get along very well but I don't trust him at all. I know GM feels the same way, and maybe you do too? Sam can deliver good conversation, but you always have it in the back of your mind if he'll run and tell someone else what you said - and he usually does.

Sam's still online right now and has claimed that he hasn't slept at all and is waiting around for you. He's clearly anxious and nervous about going up.

For nominations, you could do the following:
- Ed and Jade, like you wanted, but if Ed goes, we could have potential fall-out with GM. She'll know we, her allies, evicted Ed, instead of going for Sam or even Jade.
- Sam and Jade, which is like Ed and Jade, except Sam is clearly your target and you're gunning after him.
- Faye and Jade, which is pretty safe in my opinion, you just tell Faye she's a pawn and she'll come down, but if she doesn't, then Jade will go home. If she comes down, then you backdoor a guy.
- Sam and Ed, which is really going after the two and ensuring that one of them walks out the front door by the end of the week, because neither would leave nominations the same and if one came down, Jade could go up.

[Rhian]

I can be so fake. I nail it to almost perfection when I need to. Atleast I can admit it. While Sam was randomly pouring all these details out to me this morning, I was taking screenshots with my phone and forwarding them to Amanda. I wanted Sam and Ed on the block this week. For many reasons. Sam being on the block beside Ed increases Ed's chances at staying this week. However, if Sam were to escape the block, Ed would be the shoe-in to go, and booting him would have to be understood by GinaMarie. I would then have to point out that I tried to extend Ed's survival, but it failed, and Ed is without a doubt the bigger threat if Sam comes down. So, all in all, the threat this week is Sam, but if he comes down, it'll have to become Ed. Deana wants Ed out still but she's not in control, so bye. I actually hope Ed wins the Power of Veto.

Peter comes up to me and tells me how Faye's confiding in him with all this information. He brings up that Faye mentioned being aligned with me and GinaMarie at the start of the game. Lmao. I admitted it to Peter but expressed that I didn't trust Faye any longer after I had heard she was trying to exclude me from voting plans, which further proves how not close the "alliance" was to begin with. Faye is killing herself, though. Honestly. I'm over her. I was going to play around with her staying for a little longer but if I happen to win Head of Household anytime soon, then she's going up. I don't even care now. She was right when she said she sucked at Big Brother. I saw her coasting deep into the game but she keeps aiming the gun at her foot and pulling the trigger.

I fully expect there to be some drama and fallout tonight. I'm sure Sam, Deana, and Amanda will be the main three engaged in whatever goes down. Deana is all about the drama. She's already high on happiness right now saying she wants to rub it in their faces. Deana is starting to get on my nerves again, much like she was at the beginning. She's just all about mouthing off and it's aggravating. Pipe down. Amanda feels comfortable even after her decision today, but I know that if Sam confronts her tonight then they'll go at it. Sam was already pissed this morning at the fact Amanda was considering putting up Ed and Jade, so there's bound to be some real fireworks tonight.

[Rhian]

Faye wins the Power of Veto. Blehhh. Whatever, I'll take it. The performances in that competition were really bad. GinaMarie and I just attempted the challenge and we topped all the other scores in our first attempt. I'm annoyed that Faye won because I don't like her at all, but I'm thinking that she won't use the Power of Veto anyways. I've already gone to Amanda and asked her if she had a preference about who goes yet, and she said she didn't have too much of a preference because she feels like Sam will go anyways. Okay. So, now it's time to try and see where the votes will fall when it comes to this eviction.

There will be seven votes this week since GM can't vote to evict. The way it stands right now based on what people have said to me is, Deana wants to evict Ed as does Jade. That's two votes. Faye and Peter have both said they are going to evict Sam as of right now, and I will also be evicting Sam. That's three votes. That leaves Judd and Helen's vote in limbo. I think if Peter, GM, and I talk to Helen, we can get her on board to evict Sam this week. I don't really know what Judd is thinking, but who really does? I hope that Sam does go this week because I'd rather not have him around anymore. You can't trust saying anything to him; I feel like I can with Ed. Also, GM can get into Ed's head.

Let's backtrack to Faye. I mentioned that I don't like her. I really don't. In my last entry, I said how she went to Peter and spilled the beans on the alliance between she, GM, and I. As soon as I started thinking about it more, who's to say she didn't tell anyone else? I wouldn't be surprised if she has. If I had to identify a person, she probably told Deana. I'm not sure because I'd think Deana would confront me about it like Peter had, but she hasn't. Idk. However, I decided to tell Amanda myself, just so Faye can't use that against me in the future if she hasn't told her, or if she already has, it's null and void because I mentioned it naturally amidst a message without Amanda having to ask.

Faye just needs to watch her back. I understand she's fallen behind in the game when it came to making real bonds with the other housemates, but that doesn't mean she needs to drag GM and I down with her. Bitch move, Faye.

[Rhian]

The day of nominations, Amanda was saying how she can't be fake and she has to let people know how she truly feels about them. I understood where she was coming from but I told her that she has to try and keep her real feelings under wraps when it comes to talking to the enemy. But what does she do? She goes and spills little bits of details to Sam as to why he was nominated. Sam apparently only mentioned some of the things she said to me and GM, so he believes I'm the one that ran to Amanda and spilled everything. Oh my god. I can not get caught in my web of deception right now. It's not a good time.

Luckily, GM managed to help spin it a little bit into Sam saying, "I thought Rhian and I got along well. Maybe she told someone who told someone who told Amanda, I don't know. That's what happened to me." Phew. A small sigh of relief, but still not in the clear. I really, really don't feel comfortable with him staying in this house now. He really needs to go. Last night before I went to bed, I told Peter and GM they had to stay up to talk to Helen and Jade. GM to talk to Jade, Peter to talk to Helen. They both seemed to get the job done and now both Helen and Jade are leaning to boot Sam. That's perfect. That would be four votes with myself, Helen, Peter, and Jade, and that makes majority.

I'm talking to Judd this morning and he's on my nerves. He wants Ed out because he thinks there's a big alliance aside from the rumored "Aussie" alliance, which actually, is getting a little old. He believes the alliance consists of Deana, Faye, Peter, Helen, and Amanda. Seriously? He's aligned with two of those people in their stupid little threesome, and he thinks they're apart of a whole other alliance? It's just too funny. Honestly, it feels like nobody is loyal to anyone in this game, at all. I'll be using this information to my advantage later, depending who wins Head of Household. It could come in handy and it could fracture Faye's little side group. I'd love to dismantle that ridiculous "mafia".

[Faye]

Oct 10, 2013 19:49:46 GMT -5 Rhian said:

Faye wins the Power of Veto. Blehhh. Whatever, I'll take it. The performances in that competition were really bad. GinaMarie and I just attempted the challenge and we topped all the other scores in our first attempt.

Jesus Christ. Get over yourself.

[Rhian]

Thanks for taking the time to read my journal. Xo.

[Faye]

No worries!

In a serious, personal level though. You acted like what I did to you was personal punishment, when you did shit too. I understand getting me out, nominating me, and everything. But hey, I'm a human being. You did just as much as me in terms of backstabbing, I guess the difference is I got caught. So instead of acting like your god, maybe just realize that there are other individuals in this game too?

Well, maybe not in this game, where nearly the entire jury couldn't think for themselves, but you get my point.

[Rhian]

And .. it was all written in the heat of the moment. Try not to take everything to heart here. It's a game. I hope your next Big Brother game brings you more success. Thanks for your comments!

[sam]

Oct 8, 2013 10:58:20 GMT -5 Rhian said:

Oct 8, 2013 10:06:28 GMT -5 Rhian said:

I mean, you can have a good "relationship" with Sam, but that doesn't mean you have to trust him. Sam and I get along very well but I don't trust him at all. I know GM feels the same way, and maybe you do too? Sam can deliver good conversation, but you always have it in the back of your mind if he'll run and tell someone else what you said - and he usually does.

I so knew you were the one that ran to Amanda!  lol <3 I loved the way you played though and did enjoy the talks we had together

[Faye]

I guess that wasn't what I was asking, but whatever.

Thanks, and gl in allstars.

[Rhian]

Nov 19, 2013 3:01:26 GMT -5 sam said:

Oct 8, 2013 10:58:20 GMT -5 Rhian said:

I so knew you were the one that ran to Amanda!  lol <3 I loved the way you played though and did enjoy the talks we had together

LMAO. I'm sorry about that! I did like you a great deal, you just worried me like nobody else. But yes, our chats. <3 You were definitely robbed of Jury.