GinaMarie Zimmerman [1st]
Jade Pietrantonio [2nd]
Ed Lower [3rd]
Rhian Sugden [4th]
Helen Kim [5th]
Peter Brown [6th]
Judd Daugherty [7th]
Amanda Zuckerman [8th]
Deana Uppal [9th]
Faye Palmer [10th]
Sam Wallace [11th]
Eric Stein [12th]
Bart Spring in 't Veld [13th]
Steven Daigle [14th]
Dan Gheesling [15th]
Jen Johnson [16th]
First off heyyy Colby! Next time I will! So I have a lot to update in this dr! So much has happened since the last. So we get to the veto challenge and I am imminently thrilled. This was the type of pov I was hoping for because it's a visual challenge. I am not good at those questions type challenges. I like to think of myself being able to study faces and pictures really well. My strategy for the challenge was to study my houseguest photos and have 16 Google tabs open with each name. I knew the American ones right off the bat. Faye, Jade and Ed were easy to recognize. I know my time questioned the house calls and given my history with 1 host and house call it was easy to assume the worst. But I have my learned my lesson from my past and wouldn't try anything shady like that. Especially since I have become a familiar face to this series and that would be embarrassing to just get banned.
After I won the veto, things surprisingly turned for the better for me. Now after I was nominated I had a sneaking suspicion some alliance is after me. Turns out it might have been a guy’s alliance led by Steven. Rhian opened up to me and told me Steven was targeting me hardcore to her.
This is pretty much a highlight of a conversation I had with Steven.
workbxxchbangerz 8:34 pm You want to win veto?
Steven 8:34 pm i don't know if i want to win it or not why?
workbxxchbangerz 8:34 pm you better WORK BITCH!
Steven 8:35 pm uhm ok lol
Awkward! Rhian basically confirmed all my suspicions about Steven and a guy alliance being after me. I just don’t know what I did! Like I can do nothing right when I play in this series! It honestly feels very personal! I still do not trust Ed at all! I feel like Rhian and Ed are together! Just my gut feeling and that he has ties with the whole house. Going into the hoh competition I only feel secure with very few people. I, Helen, Jade or Sam need to win. We don’t have any official alliance but those are the people who currently like me. Eric was running his mouth about me, Jade and Helen being in an alliance. Something I do not need going into a new round. I feel like these people will not give up trying to get rid of me!
I was at work and on my phone doing the challenge. It was extremely frustrating trying to balance both! Because we were super busy! I was getting demanding and controlling with Helen, Jade and Sam during the challenge. After I was out I was pretty much telling them which box to break. When it came down to Eric, Helen, GM, Ed, Jade and Sam, I was going nuts! I was so afraid Ed was going to sneak a win! I told Helen to break GM’s box and not Eric’s since he’s not even online. She didn’t fuck listen! I got so pissed at Helen! Then when it came down to Jade, Sam and Ed and Sam had the choice to break Ed or Jade. He was going to break Jade! Which would mean Ed would win! I went off on Sam and begged him to break Ed. That your girl will be in danger if Ed wins!
Thankfully Sam is smart and listens to me! Jade decides to give Sam the win which I don’t know why but okay. Sam is after Steven so I am happy. After the challenge Steven was flipping out that someone gave out his numbers. He was questioning Helen and calling her a C***! And he quits!
God really did listen to my prayers! The guy who has been after me and talking shit about me is gone! Now everyone is telling me how crazy he was but last week everyone was listening to him! Shady bitches!
With Steven gone, I feel like I can make this fresh start with my house guest. I started off wrong by being over the top and acting like Amanda. I tried to confront Ed on him wanting Bart to stay over me. He denied it and denied that he knew I was the target. So he is still being shady with me and now he knows I am onto him. But we did have a good chat and he opened up to me about his father’s passing.
Because Steven quit, Sam was lost on what his nominations should be. He wants Bart to go because they never met which is fair. But he wanted to put Faye up with him. Now I have been bonding with Faye lately. I would much rather Eric goes up because of the shit he tried to pull.
I decided to tell Faye about Sam putting her up. I am trying to get something official with Faye to have my back. I need to start building allies in this game, that way I feel much better going into a competition. I, Faye and Helen make a calialliance. Since we are from California of course! REPRESENT!
Right now the target is Bart and that’s fine. I would prefer Eric leave this round just because I know he is against me. We have 3 more rounds till final 9 which would mean jury point! That is my goal basically! I don’t care if I am first juror! I want to try and be under the radar for a little bit. But that is going to be so hard since I am an over the top person.
I really need to update my diary rooms daily! Shit change every day in this game and it’s hard to write about the past! So we have the power of veto completion and Sam picked me to play. I do want to win this challenge just to make sure the nominations stay the same for Sam. But I also do not want to win another challenge for me to look like an early competition threat. Deana ends up winning the challenge and I was shocked as hell. I really did overlook Deana because she is here to play unlike I originally thought.
Since Ed secretly wanted to get rid of me week 2. I need to slowly work my way into his good graces and make sure he doesn’t want me out anymore. So I am doing everything and anything I can to get him to trust me. He ends up opening up about not trusting Deana. He says she mentions she wants to use the veto to save Faye. This reminds me of saving Tala last season. It’s good to hear I am not the only one who thinks Deana should go because she could be a threat later on.
Rhian comes to me mentioning what her temptation might be. We know it is going to affect the house after this eviction. I suspect 2 houses or duos twist. We mention that Judd, Eric and Deana should leave soon because we don’t know what they would do as hoh. Rhian and I have really worked things out ever since she nominated me. She has been very open with me and I do trust her. But for some reason I just have this gut feeling her and Ed are together! Maybe because Ed knew Rhian wanted me out? I am always careful what I say about Ed to Rhian. I always mention I like him and that he is awesome!
Rhian and I decide we need to build an alliance and get numbers. I want to feel safe going into a competition. I do not want to feel like if I lose then I am screwed. She mentions GM and Helen as best bets. Helen and I already connected well. GM and I haven’t been very open with each other which I now need to change. I basically let her know the comfort and support we both need in this game. It works out great and she is down! We decide that we both like Faye and Jade that we should include them. But having a 6 alliance when there are 13 people left is not smart. We can get caught easy and just throw our games away. So for now it’s me, Rhian, Helen and GM! We want Bart, Deana, Eric and Judd next!
Deana ends up not using the veto and Bart gets the boot. Another easy vote! So exciting!
The temptation was revealed and it’ survivor week! My first thought was this is our chance to get rid of a big player! I talk to Helen how getting rid of Eric or Judd would be a total waste this week. Deana should leave since she has friends in this game that are keeping her safe. While she does nothing to protect herself! I feel like I have Helen, Rhian, GM and Ed’s support 100%! Sam and Faye wouldn’t go for it. While Judd and Eric would to save themselves!
This is where everything changes! Rhian wants to talk to me and says it’s something very important that cannot be repeated. Guess what? Ed wants me out this round! What in the fuck! What did I do know?! I thought I made progress with Ed and yet he still wants me out! “This is the chance to get someone out like Amanda” that is his reasoning according to Rhian. Someone like Amanda? What does that even mean?! Am I really playing like Amanda that I am this big threat?
I don’t even know anymore. I feel like I will always remain this big target to people! It fucking sucks! Processing what Rhian told me, I am shocked she even told me this. She tells me he told her and GM and that they both said no. She doesn’t want anyone including GM that I know Ed wants me out because GM likes Ed. Think of Ed as GM’s Nick! Great! Ed thinks me and Rhian have not made up after she nominated me.
Rhian suspects that Ed, Sam and Jade are together. They are aussies, last 3 in the hoh box competition. It does make sense! I was always careful what I told Sam in this game. It makes me wonder if Sam would actually vote me out because Ed wants to. This alliance being discovered changes everything. Ed wanting me out this round changes my targets.
Right now I want to stay low as possible. I will not be pushing for anyone to leave. I assume it will be Judd or Eric and I will just go with the flow. But when I win Hoh I am not afraid to make the move against Ed, Sam and Jade. Next I want to work things out with Deana. I think going against Deana would be dumb on my part. Rhian already informed me that Deana suspects those 3 are together, so this should be easy. We end up bonding very well! Very open conversation and we are almost in the same spot. We are both close with Sam and that he has been very shady to both of us. Deana asked me why I wanted her out and she says Sam told her. I never told Sam I wanted Deana out so Ed must have told Sam. Deana and I joining forces together will help bring down Ed and Sam. They won’t know what hit them!
I also need to work on bonding with Peter and being open with him. He mentioned that Sam wanted him out this round and we talked about how shady Sam might be. Rhian and Helen trust Peter a lot so I need to find a way for Peter to trust me. We both agree that Eric or Judd need to go this round. I need it to happen just so I am not on anyone’s radar like I have been.
Sam winning safety does worry me. That he will feel safe to want to vote out whoever he wants. I am staying close to Sam and acting like I would do what he tells me to do. That way he can push off Ed’s idea to vote me out. I really hope Ed does not get any support with that idea.
So here is an update! Trying to do some daily updates that way it is easier to write my drs!
Today was a very busy day for me! I had school, work and plans to check out a screening for Beetle juice! Never saw the movie before! The showing was at 10 and I got home at 9:30! I was rushing to do the challenge and of course I messed up early in it! I had no time to waste to fix my mistake so I just like fuck it!
Big strategy talk went down tonight. Basically a group of people think we can get the votes to boot either Ed or Jade. I know we compared notes and basically we would need Helens vote at this point?
Judd, Eric, Faye, Peter, myself are all down. And I know you'd be down. This was just pitched to me all by Faye. She seems to have put this together and came up to me with the idea.
Is this actually going to happen? I am beyond shocked right now! I thought the vote would just be simple Eric or Judd. I was ready to do that because I do not want to put myself out there this round. This is great right now, Faye planning this whole thing out. It will all go back to her and not me. Basically I just want to go along with it. I have 2 issue in voting Ed out though. I do not want to keep secrets like this from Rhian and GM. I am 100% committed to that alliance. GM liking Ed makes me think it is not a good idea to tell her. Rhian on the other hand, I can say I have the chance to take Ed out. You said yourself he wanted me out, why not do it now?
Another thing is I do not trust Eric! He has the biggest mouth in this entire game! I view her as Brandon Hantz to be honest!
So the plan to vote out Ed totally got fucked up! GM and Rhian found out and I totally lied straight to them. I acted like I was thinking about it and not sure what to do. Turns out Peter told GM? That Peter wasn't really for voting out Ed. Then Judd and Deana got into it. Eric started wanted Deana out. It just turned into a whole mess and I didn't want to be part of it. It is amazing though that Faye and Deana are getting all the heat for this plan. This works out perfectly for my under the radar strategy. Ed should be after Deana/Faye instead of me now!
Eric leaving a goodbye message was hilarious. This dude did nothing to contribute for to this game! He was an awful person to talk to and repeated everything you said to people! Guy had the biggest mouth ever and was very unstable. Before going after the Aussies, Eric had to leave first.
Going into this upcoming round, I want to be very under the radar. I am very proud of myself with the way I was last round. There was drama and I wasn't part of it! I didn't try to control the vote! I laid low and went the flow! AMAZING! That never happens! For the first time this game, I feel like I have no enemies. I really feel like I do not need to win any competition this round. It's basically the aussies vs Deana/Faye. Let them battle it out!
It's time for the hoh competition and I am not stressed out at all. At first I thought this hoh would be very easy since I am good with faces. But I was not expecting those types of babies! I wasn't really rushing to get my answers done. But after 15 minutes passed, I got very bored and wanted to get out. For the lips I just gave my best guess and it was a wrap. I feel like I did horrible in that competition which was embarrassing because I am usually good at those competitions.
Results show up and I win hoh!
NOT HAPPY! This was the first time ever in playing ORGS that I was not happy to win a competition. I just fucked my whole game up by winning this hoh competition. Both sides expect me to side with them! Sure I can target Judd and make this round easy for myself. But that is not me! I refuse to waste my hoh on someone like Judd! I know who I want to target but it feels impossible to accomplish. I feel like Ed has so many ties in this game and has wanted me gone in this game. He may not want me gone now but he did when I thought I trusted him. There are so many road blocks preventing Ed to go.
First GM who is in my alliance is like BFFS with Ed. She is obviously going to protect him and flip between him and the alliance. So getting him out now is good for the alliance, lets her focus on us more. Her temptation couldn't have come in a better time. Not playing in veto or voting this round.
When I asked Peter, Faye, GM, and Rhian which aussie they prefer to leave this round they all said Sam. Now I do believe Sam is shady but he hasn't done me wrong personally. Out of the 3 aussies, I think he would keep me around longer than Jade and especially Ed. I don't want to put Sam up because he will go regardless and I just ruined the relationship I had with him. The thing is I don't want him to veto Ed!
Jade and I did bond very well week 2 but since then. It's been a sinking ship! She acted like we were sisters after I won hoh. She expected me to put up Deana since we hated each other. Little does she know Deana and I made up! She is going to be super pissed but I think it's best for her to go up.
I found it very hilarious and frustrating when I talked to Ed. First of all this bitch felt totally safe with me winning hoh. He also thought I would target Deana this round! Wasn't he the one after we bonded targeting Deana, tried to get me out right after? Ever since I found out Ed has wanted me out of this game I have always been doing this when he turns his head.
Without a doubt he is my target! Now I have so many bad qualities when it comes to social skills and hiding where I stand. I could not for the life of me, just tell Ed “Oh I don’t know what I am going to do, I have so many choices” So I mention that I might nominate the aussie 3 and he tries to guilt trip me! Here are some highlights!
Ed (11:17:48 PM): i just wouldnt understand if you would actually listen to those two and nominate me who actually has your back
Ed (11:24:10 PM): who talked to you when you were nominated and who talked to you even when you were not nominated
Ed (11:31:44 PM): like if you even believe that theres an aussie thing going on, then you're just saying you doubt me :-\
Ed (11:31:50 PM): when i never doubted your trust in me
Ed (11:33:12 PM): does you and i have no deal since day 1?
Ed (11:43:14 PM): i know
Ed (11:43:18 PM): thats the amanda i knew from day 1
Ed (11:43:31 PM): thats the amanda i trusted and still trust
Ed (11:43:34 PM): because you keep it real
Ed (11:33:21 PM): because i thought we had
This mother fucker! I was about to lose and call him out on all the shit he said about me! UGH! That pissed me off so much that he had the nerve to talk to me like that. He is such a fake person it’s disgusting. How do people not realize this?! Bitch you were fake and keeping important information from me like I was the target when I got nominated you bitch!
I thought it would be important to talk to Rhian before I decide anything. I need her blessing if I move forward with getting Ed out. Now I am not stupid, Ed obviously trusts Rhian. Why would Rhian want to get rid of Ed? It doesn’t help her at all. So I wouldn’t be surprised if she campaigns to keep him behind my back. She suggests if I put up Ed/Jade that I act like Sam can be the backdoor plan. But really Sam is not going on the block unless Ed wins the veto. If Jade wins the veto I don’t know!
I wanted to be very open with Sam and let him know everyone wants him gone. That I am doing him a favor by not putting his ass up so he cannot fuck me over! Of course he promised not to use the veto and vote out who I wanted but who keeps those promises really? At the end of the day he is going to do what’s best for him and not me.
As of right now Helen and Deana are ready to evict Ed. I’d hope Peter, Sam and Rhian will do the same but you never know. By putting Jade/Ed up does show where I stand and it’s no more under the radar Amanda. That sucks because I can totally see myself getting booted next round right before jury ONCE AGAIN! However, at the end of this round I should have the support of Helen, Rhian, GM (hopefully), Deana, Faye and Peter. Sam shouldn’t target me if I keep him safe. Judd I don’t really believe is in this game! Ed/Jade whoever stays between them would be after me and hopefully it’s Jade!
I have nominated Ed and Sam for eviction. This is was not my original plan for the week, but things change. No matter how many times you want to deny it, you two are competition threats. Myself and the "house" see you as a power duo in this game. One of you ain't surviving this week that's for sure!
Being hoh this week was crazy! So when I went to bed I planned on putting Ed/Jade up on the block. I wake up the next morning to find out that Sam was talking major shit on me. Plus making fun of me! Rhian tells me so much stuff about why Sam should go on the block. Now I kind of see what Rhian is trying to do here. I do suspect she may be lying a little about what Sam said. Maybe she is trying to get me against Sam, that way Ed stays safe? At this point I am just like fuck it. I told Sam to shut the fuck up this week and that people want him out. He is stupid to be talking smack about the 1 person who was going to keep him safe.
Putting Sam and Ed meant from here on now no more safe nominations. I finally got this game into high gear. I think only myself; Helen and Deana would have had the guts to put up 2 big threats up together. Sam having a meltdown after him getting nominated just made me feel much better about my nominations. This guarantees Sam or Ed leaving this week! It’s frustrating that they think I am just doing what Faye and Deana want. When in reality Peter, Helen, GM and Rhian wanted them on the block! But I guess it’s good for them to think I am getting manipulated.
Going into the veto challenge, I am hoping that whoever wins keeps my nominations the same. Jade getting picked to play was awful because she is the person I want to put up incase Ed or Sam get off. Part of me does hope Sam wins this veto just because it would insure Ed’s fate. The veto competition was fun but where was the song wrecking ball?! It should have been playing!
Faye ends up killing the competition and I am happy. It’s obvious she won’t use it and now Sam’s fate is sealed. After Faye doesn’t use the veto, I am expecting just everyone evicted Sam. Sam decides he wants to go out with a bang and start putting things together. After I nominated Sam he asked me what happened. I told him what people told me but didn’t give any names. So he suspects I am with Rhian and GM since he talked to them about me. It’s bad for the Femme Fatales alliance for Sam to stay. But it’s bad for me if Ed stays since he wants me gone.
Deana, Judd and Faye want to evict Ed. Rhian, Peter, and Jade want to evict Sam. Helen is the swing vote! Now if Helen evicts Ed that goes behind the Femme Fatale alliance and we could be possibly on our own. Helen asks me what she should do! I really want Ed to go but if he does Rhian and GM lose all trust in us. Helen is frustrated that Rhian and GM are getting what they want but it is way too early in the game to backstab them. Right now Rhian and GM are numbers for us to stay in case we end up on the block!
I tell Helen long term it’s best for Sam to go. Rhian tells me she wants Ed to leave next but I won’t believe it till I see it happen! Going into the next round, I do not want Judd, Ed or Jade winning this hoh competition. Everyone else has no reason to come after me! If I do end up on the block, I hope it’s Deana or Faye because I would have the numbers to stay thanks to Femme Fatales alliance.
Okay! It’s a new round! So the hoh competition was endurance and it was levels! OMG! Now I am having season 3 nightmares! This is the exact round where I left last time. Same hoh challenge! I am glad I do not have to participate in it because endurance is for the no lives! Helen having her Disneyland trip I know she will not win it. Basically I want anyone but Ed to win this competition. Of course Ed wins! Hahaha great! I feel like I am going to regret getting rid of Sam over Ed! UGH! Because I listened to Rhian! Damn it! GM keeps telling me Ed would go after Faye or Deana. No bitch! I am the one who put him on the block and ended his bromance with Sam! He would be a fool not to put me on the block. Rhian once again wins the temptation poll, shocker. I feel like only me and Helen notice that Rhian is running this game. I even told Rhian to her fact at one point that she is in the best spot. I basically put it like she is Taylor Swift since everyone loves that bitch and she can do no wrong. While I am the Lindsay Lohan since bitches talk major shit and makes stories about me. Her temptation turned out to be really good. Ed and Rhian are now co-hoh which means Rhian can put someone on the block that I would stay against. I wanted someone like Jade or Judd against me rather than Deana or Faye. But Rhian wants Faye out hardcore, which came out of nowhere to be honest. Turns out they both hate each other! I bet you it’s because Faye is doing her own thing and not listening to Rhian like the rest of us! But see what happens if you go against Rhian? You are dead meat! Nominations happen and I was expecting Ed to put me on the block. I wasn’t expecting his speech! That was so rude and uncalled for! Obviously you confirmed all my suspicions about you being shady to me and you are mad I knew about it. I bet majority of you guys were surprised that I didn’t snap back at him. As hard as it was for me not to, I knew it wouldn’t be the smartest choice. I cannot blow up when I am nominated and possibly get evicted. Rhian and GM both begged me not to lose my temper with him. That was one of the toughest things for me not to do. Because I always defend myself in these situations and he doesn’t know the full story. The veto competition felt made for me to be honest. I have this whole strategy to screen shot every frame! I was saving them all and going to look through them fast when I do the challenge. Turned out to be over 2,000 frames! The Faye picture did confuse me because I didn’t realize they were 2 different photos. I was counting I submitted 24 and it should be 25. Taking 22 minutes long was not good. My goal was under 10 minutes and to be all correct. I wasn’t even correct after all my hard work! Peter ends up winning the veto and that’s fine I guess. According to Rhian I would have been fine going against Judd or Deana had Faye gone off the block. I should have a clear vote to stay with Helen, GM, Peter, Jade and Deana all telling me they are keeping me. But again I am a bigger threat than Faye. Just like I was to Ryan last time! This is the chance to get me out before jury! This time around I have a solid alliance that actually has my back. Rhian seems to have Peter on a tight leash. Rhian got into Deana’s head that Faye has been shady to her which makes Deana want to keep me. Jade hates Faye with a passion. If I stay I basically have Rhian to thank because she wants Faye out this much. I will feel like such a dumbass if I get evicted after making the first big move of the season. I knew putting those 2 guys up will have its consequences. But I didn’t know it would result in me getting evicted the round after.
Holy shit! I finally made jury! OMG! I stayed over Faye! Everyone voted to keep me! AHHHHH! It’s about damn time! It would have been so awful had I left that round just after my hoh where I could have played it safe to ensure I make it to jury. Really jury is all I care about! I hate the jury questions jurors ask!
With Ed wanting my head on a platter, I need to win this hoh! I want him gone ASAP! The hoh was very difficult. I could not for the life of me figure out what kind of story I wanted to do. It’s hard in just 3 strips. It took me about 3 hours to finally pick something random and probably made zero sense at all.
It surprised me that only 4 people did the challenge, kind of disappointing. When Peter won, I felt very worried. I know Rhian and Helen are in his ear but you never know. I did ensure his safety the round I was hoh so he has no reason to put me up. When I finally get the chance to talk to him he says he wants to put Judd and Jade with an idea to backdoor Ed if given the chance. That is awesome news! Having Ed leave when I am not even hoh would be amazing! Peter seems to really be on board with backdooring Ed.
The veto challenge took me forever to understand! It was a toughie! I was getting blank after blank after blank! I would rather get slop than blank! Judd killing the veto was ummm surprising! Of course he would kill a luck competition that requires barely any skills. I was basically hoping anyone but GM wins this veto to ensure the veto gets used and Ed goes up.
Judd ends up going on some power trip and starts campaigning for ME to get backdoored! Wow! Seriously now I have Judd and Ed on my ass! I seriously will never catch a break in this game! How is it that no one is gunning hardcore for Helen, GM or Rhian? Why am I the big bad wolf? Honestly Judd has no one who he messed with because now he is done for. He could have floated his weak ass to the end but he just made himself public enemy number 1.
I decided to be blunt with him sucking and how everyone is surprised he won a challenge. He decided to tell people I am bullying him lmao! Helen tells me I need to stop because he just got over another bully in this big brother game. Turns out that was me! Hahahaha! Omg I cannot wait to reveal that it was me who tortured his sorry ass!
Peter decides he shouldn’t put up Ed because Ed kept him safe during his hoh. Are you fucking kidding me?! Really Peter?! You say you would backdoor him and then back out? What a pussy little bitch! He puts Deana up which sucks! Deana is on my side to get rid of Ed, I need her in this game. Both Helen and I want Deana to stay over Jade. GM wants Jade to stay over Deana. Judd I think would keep Deana since he wanted me up so she wouldn’t go up. It’s basically up to Rhian which isn’t a surprise. Deana likes both me and Rhian the most so hopefully that helps. I hope Rhian comes through for me!
