Week 4

[Helen]

Hellllllllllllllllllo Final 12! What was a slow week at first picked up pace as the days went by. I don't recall if I mentioned it in one of my latest Diary Room entries, but Amanda and I had established what I thought was a Final 3 with Faye (the West Coast is the Best Coast, baby!), which I was perfectly content with, even though at the same time I still wanted to pledge some type of loyalty to Rhian, Peter and GinaMarie. Then the other day, Amanda told me that instead of our Final 3 with Faye, we now have a Final Four with Rhian and GinaMarie, what?! In theory, it's great for me -- I like Rhian and GinaMarie and trust them both a lot, I'm just surprised that Amanda was so quick to drop Faye like that! I'm not sure where Faye is in terms of gameplay, but I still like her, so I'll have to work extra hard to make sure she feels comfortable with Amanda and I -- or at the very least myself, lol. I also REALLY like Peter too, and ever since my theory of him being in an all guys alliance was squashed, I really feel like working with him would be great! I'd love to have a solid Final 6 with myself, Amanda, Rhian, GinaMarie, Faye and Peter -- but there's no way any of that would happen, but I feel like I can really trust Peter, and I think he trusts me too! So that's something I can't put in jeopardy. At this point, I feel like I have to pledge loyalty to my Femme Fatale (that was for your, Kat!) alliance of Amanda, Rhian and GinaMarie, while also cementing my relationships with Faye and Peter. At this point, I don't think I'm playing a shady game. It's not like Peter or Faye are telling me things and I'm running to Femme Fatale and telling them everything (a la Andy -_-) -- I actually believe there is good in keeping some information to yourself!

[Helen]

Now, for that Temptation twist ... it's interesting! Lol. At first I was so worried, because I thought it was one of two things:

a.) Since we were all at even numbers, I thought we were going into a Dynamic Duos twist and Rhian was going to pick partners, which was intense! It'd have been a super easy way to sweep the game of two houseguests! So I'm glad that wasn't it!

b.) I also thought it was going to be a Survivor twist, except I thought the remaining 12 players would be divided in half and compete for immunity and have to work as a team, which also scared me ... had I been on a losing tribe and with people on my tribe that weren't looking out for me, I'd have been a goner! So I'm glad this twist is taking place as if we're at a merge, which is perfect.


The good thing about this round is that since there is no HOH and essentially everyone is up for grabs aside from the two people who win immunity, Femme Fatale basically has a school yard pick of who we want to get out! Though we're only four (or three? Does Rhian get to vote?), I believe we can easily rope in Faye and Peter to vote with us. Amanda apparently has Sam under his spell and Deana and Ed are enemies (is what I've been told), so there's no way the remaining half of the house would vote together. It's very important though that Femme Fatale all vote together with the numbers our our side, that way as we move forward into what will hopefully be the Final 11, we'll have knocked one more enemy out of the way.

As for targets, I'm really indifferent. I'm being selfish and I want to get rid of people I don't trust. If this were a regular Big Brother week and I was HOH, Eric would definitely be my target, with either Deana or Judd as a pawn. Amanda brought up a good point though in that we shouldn't waste an opportunity like this (having an easy picking of who we want to get rid of) on someone like Eric who doesn't appear to be a competition threat. My only concern is that if Eric stays and wins HOH and nominates me alongside another Femme Fatale, then we're screwed. Amanda thinks Deana would be a smarter target, but knows Sam or Faye wouldn't vote for her, so I don't know if we have numbers for that. I like Deana, I don't talk to her all the time but when we do they're never bad conversations. We'll just have to wait for the results of the next to immunity challenges to see who is legible to be voted out!

[Helen]

And ugh, I'd love to win this Immunity challenge! I was trying to determine how important this challenge was to win, because I wouldn't want to win a challenge where my winning wasn't necessary and then have to miss out on the following HOH, but Kat confirmed that I can win this one and still play next week since it's technically Survivor ... but honestly, who am I kidding, half of this cast is foreign, I couldn't get anyone's voice right even if I tried! I had a bunch of YouTube tabs open to compare voices and ugh! Bart's should be easy to distinguish since I don't even think he speaks English LOL, but Ed and Sam (who are both cute lol) both sound alike (Ed's voice sounds a little deeper?), and then Faye, Rhian, Jade and Deana all sound alike too! I think I can distinguish Jade's voice from Rhian's, Jade's sounds more down to Earth and stuff and Rhian really sounds like the way she looks -- slutty, but in a respectful way since I like Rhian. I couldn't find any good clips of Deana but I tried listening to her voice with my eyes closed and I kept picturing her voice on Faye's face -- ugh! Super difficult.

All in all, this week will be interesting! I want to feel safe, Femme Fatale already gives us 4 votes and we just need another three for majority's sake, but you never know!

Also, shout out to Kevin, I talked to him very brief today because he'll probably post my challenge for me, but he's so nice! He's also from the Netherlands! So sorry Bart, there shouldn't be any excuses

[Helen]

Okay, so that Immunity challenge, way too difficult ... LOL. But omg, it totally brought back memories of Jen! If I remember correctly, I think her audio clip was from when they unveiled memory wall pictures and she was crying because her picture was ugly, lol! Oh, memories!

[Helen]

Oh goodness, can this game ever go a week without someone stirring the pot? After feeling totally comfortable in the game and thinking this could be another week where I can just cruise on by and just cast another vote for eviction, Amanda told me that Rhian told her (he said, she said, blahblahblah) that Ed is conspiring against Amanda ... Ed's reason being, "This is the perfect time to get her out!"

This worries me for two reasons: 1.) I was hoping that Femme Fatale would be able to bring in the votes of Ed, Sam and Jade this week to get the majority, in the event that Peter or Faye didn't pull through ... if Ed is conspiring against Amanda, that must mean Sam and Jade are (I have a feeling the three of them are working together), and the three of them know they're going to need numbers, so now I just wonder who they're rallying up on their sides.

And 2.) Rhian told Amanda not to tell anyone -- including me. Um, excuse me? Lol, if we're all supposed to be working together then I don't know why I need to be left out of it ... shouldn't we all be working together to try fix the situation?! Makes me concerned that Rhian trusts Amanda over me, so now I'm concerned about where her loyalties really lie. And at this point, everyone seems to be telling Rhian who they like and don't like ... if that's the case, Rhian is the most likeable person in the house and I can't have someone like that going anywhere beyond the Final 4 with me.

On a different note, I talked with Eric a bit. He was basically telling me that he's concerned because nobody ever talks to him, so I saw this as a great opportunity to see if Femme Fatale could string him along as an extra vote, in exchange for protecting him and maybe voting out Judd or someone else. I kinda came clean to Eric, telling him I was targeting him last week because I heard him throwing my name under the bus saying I had a whole bunch of pre-game alliances coming in and blahblablah (which was a lie -- I think -- or I might have him mixed up with Dan? Honestly so many lies were told last week that it was hard for me to keep up lol), but felt bad when I found out it was Steven. Then Eric got all mad so he wanted to figure out who I heard this from and I said Amanda and GM's name; I figured if Eric was going to be confront anyone, it should be those two since they're both in my alliance and we keep the confrontation among us. Loathe and behold though, Eric copies/pastes our conversation to Amanda, and in the end accuses me of trying to stir the pot! Um, no bitch, I was just trying to give you information ... which may or may not be correct as I still can't remember what I was at Eric for again? LOL. Anyways, good to know he's an unstable mess and didn't prove his loyalty to me!

I also spoke with Judd some too. He heard his name was being thrown around as a possible target this week and I guess he was rubbing people the wrong way when he went to them asking if he was going. He came to me for help (GOOD. More people should be coming to me for help because I'm sick of Saint Rhian taking all the credit) and I basically told him he's need to stop approaching people like that because he's acting too paranoid. At this point, those bizarre thing can get you on the block, and if people have a common reason to agree on something, why wouldn't they use that as motive? Judd needs to keep his mouth shut so Eric can remain the target. Following the results of the next challenge, if Eric doesn't win then I'll have to not only work extra hard to make sure that he leaves, I'll also have to keep reassuring Judd that he'll be safe because if Judd does make it another round and gets HOH, I need him to know that I had his back. I've burned bridges with Eric already and am a guarantee to get nominated should he win HOH, which is why I need him gone. Challenge-wise Judd is not a threat, it'd be stupid to waste a great opportunity like this to get him out!

[Helen]

The only thing that sucks about this week is that normally, an HOH would've made nominations by now, so the other contestants would've had an idea on who could possibly be going. Since we still have one more Immunity challenge to do, anyone we're currently plotting against could win safety and be immune, meaning you have to start the scheming all over. I can plot against Eric all I want right now, but it would have all been for nothing if he wins immunity! I need to make sure that's NOT the case -- and especially in a game like this where anything could happen, I NEED TO WIN IMMUNITY! UGH! I need some freaking power for once! I'd hate to be an all talk no walk kind of player!

[Helen]

Ugh this last immunity was way too stressful! I posted way too early at many times which added probably an extra 5 seconds to each potential posting round! Craps.

[Helen]

I WON IMMUNITY!!!!!!!!!!

[Helen]

Okay, I won immunity -- and it's kind of a big deal. Lol jk ... kinda! When I logged on and saw my face at the bottom, I was completely surprised! Then I got conceited and wanted to see how badly I whooped everyone's asses by ... and it wasn't much at all, LOL! 11 seconds separated me from the next three finishers! Can you imagine, the top four finishing that close to each other?! Had I posted early one more time it would've been over! Just goes to show that some of these people are hard all hardcore competitors ... I'm just a little better lmao.

Anywho, the only person who I didn't want to win was Eric because I really wanted him gone this weekend, but he did pretty poorly in this challenge (but better than me at the last one ...), I'm starting to wonder if Eric is even a threat at all? I thought it was just me that Eric didn't talk much to but he appears to be lacking in the social department with other players (according to Sam, who I'm talking to right now), and if Eric isn't much of a threat then I'd prefer to keep him as a throwaway vote for later on down the road. Up until now, I thought the vote was going to come down between Judd and Eric, but upon talking to Sam he told me it's not between Eric and Deana with the majority leaning towards Deana, and this completely surprised me! Up until now Deana's name has never been brought up -- Judd's was being thrown around all the time and then to drop him and pick up Deana instead? Something doesn't seem right, I've already expressed my suspicions about Sam, Jade and Ed (whom I will abbreviated SEJ from now on) having an alliance with each other, I'm just wondering if they're using this round as a means to get Deana out, who supposedly has drama with Ed.

We'll see how this goes tomorrow when I see where everyone else's head is at.

[Helen]

Just as I was getting ready to go to bed, Deana messages me and throws out that she and Faye have orchestrated a plan to blindside Ed and take him out  I have expressed lots of interest in wanting to break up SEJ -- I think between Sam and Ed especially, they're both competition beasts! Sam won this past immunity and the previous HOH, Ed got third in the HOH that Sam won, then got 15 correct answers in the first immunity and was one of the three people that was 11 seconds away from my score ... they're both HUGE threats, and if we have the opportunity to get one of them out right now ... it'd be VERY stupid to pass up. Like I said before, this twist can really work in our favor. Aside from myself, Rhian and Sam, we basically have a school yard pick of who we want out, and chances are this Survivor twist won't come back again! If SEJ continue onto another round they can go on a winning streak just between the two of them, and if neither of them are HOH, then would that person put Ed/Sam up? Then not only that, would they both remain on the block post-Veto to ensure that ONE of them leaves? Chances are probably not! While everyone is up for grabs this would be the best opportunity to get rid of him! I am TOTALLY on board with this move, and Deana seems really confident that she has the number sot pull it off -- apparently it would be Deana, Faye, Judd, Eric, Peter, Amanda and myself -- I am obviously ONLY on board if the numbers are guaranteed. The last thing I'd want to do is burn any bridges with Ed if he's still going to be in the game. As it stands it would be a 7 - 5 vote; I would love to get ALL of Femme Fatale in on all of this but Amanda is convinced that Rhian and GinaMarie still have some type of allegiance to Ed ... in case Eric doesn't pull through, I need to figure out some way for Rhian and GinaMarie to vote for someone who isn't the target, like Judd or someone. As long as the majority of votes are cast for Ed and the remaining 5 are split like 3 - 1 - 1, then we'd be golden. But this is also a risky move. Deana is confident she has the numbers but I need to do some digging on my own and figure out how Faye came up with this idea. This may finally be the first vote that isn't unanimous.

[Helen]

Sigh, Ed is staying lol. Judd and Eric backed out of voting for Ed, Eric is now trying to throw Jade under the bus (wtf? So random), and Judd would rather vote Deana out then Ed (stupid, since Ed wanted to vote Judd out). Faye is getting a lot of shade for putting this move together and I'm a little concerned for her well being in the game now -- it's great that she wanted to make a HUGE move like this but it sucks that she just couldn't get it all together!

The one person who really surprised me out of all of this was Deana, who I have a newfound respect for. She's a great strategist, and I'm glad at the very least I was able to pick her up as a potential ally! I definitely think Femme Fatale should pick up her and Peter for a Super Six, we'd be golden!

I hate to waste such a valuable voting opportunity like this on someone like Eric, but with there being so many people we are unsure of it's best to just have a majority of the votes thrown for Eric to at least ensure that HE goes. Thinking about it now, we really do have the numbers for Ed to leave: me, Amanda, Deana, Peter, Rhian and Faye -- Rhian would break the tiebreaker in favor of us, I'm sure (and that would require the other six players to vote together, which I doubt since they're all running all over the place),  but I don't want to make this move out of respect for GM, who does not want Ed out. I'm respecting her wishes for now, but next opportunity we get I don't want to waste it again out of respect for her feelings. Voting Eric out now is good, I never trusted him anyways, and that leaves Deana and Faye still in the house too -- and I love them both, but now a lot of blood is on their hands as well for trying to orchestrate this. If SEJ wins HOH I at least feel like they would be targeted over Femme Fatale.

Or lets hope.

Thanks Rhian for giving us the most dramatic week in the house ever!